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I had to call Destiny before I hopped a plane to Paris. I'm not sure she understood why I had to leave so suddenly, but I told her I'd try and explain it all when I got back. That I had a family emergency that had to be taken care of and to tell Rhia that Carly would be coming back to LA with me. Figured Rhia could probably fill in the blanks if Des needs answers before I get back.
Fucking Vincent, I can't believe he did this! He blew our sister's protection in a moment of rage at me. I...I shouldn't have stayed to fight it out with him. But I never thought he'd break the oath and say her name. If anything happens to her before I can reach her...
No. No, I can't go there. I can't think about it because it won't happen. She'll be alright. Carly is tough and she can protect herself, but this had to catch her off guard. She wanted the protection to live her life without worry of the family's affairs coming to find her. It was...it was her chance to live a life without looking over her shoulder.
I had the same chance, but I refused. I knew I could take care of myself and maybe that is how we ended up here. With Vince and me unable to even look at each other. I've never walked out on him, never been so vicious and part of me wants to go back and apologize, but then I think about Carly and I want to increase the distance between Vin and me. Never thought I'd feel like that.
Never thought I'd be so pissed off at him that I couldn't even think about him without clenching my fists. What the fuck? How did things get so fucked up?
He knew. He knew that Mom bound my powers and never told me. I refused the choice to be protected with the spell she used for Carly, so she bound my ability to use dark magic. I'll have to ask Carly to fix it because when I attempted to reverse the spell in the airport it didn't work. I can't be having severe nausea and fatigue hitting me if I need to tap into the dark magic to protect my sister and me on our way back from Paris to LA.
Not sure what I can say to any of them. Can't help wondering if Rhia, Uncle Mal, Dad and everyone knew. If they knew she violated my powers without giving me a choice. I'm so sick of feeling like I'm...I'm unable to live my life the way I want. Did they really think I'd be like them? That I wouldn't have decided on my own that their path wasn't what I wanted for me?
We'll never know. The choice was taken from me. Well fuck them all, because I'm taking my power back. I'm through answering to any of them.
I never thought I'd be disgusted with calling myself a Spencer.
I just need to find Carly and get her home. I'll deal with the rest of it then. Fuck.
Fucking Vincent, I can't believe he did this! He blew our sister's protection in a moment of rage at me. I...I shouldn't have stayed to fight it out with him. But I never thought he'd break the oath and say her name. If anything happens to her before I can reach her...
No. No, I can't go there. I can't think about it because it won't happen. She'll be alright. Carly is tough and she can protect herself, but this had to catch her off guard. She wanted the protection to live her life without worry of the family's affairs coming to find her. It was...it was her chance to live a life without looking over her shoulder.
I had the same chance, but I refused. I knew I could take care of myself and maybe that is how we ended up here. With Vince and me unable to even look at each other. I've never walked out on him, never been so vicious and part of me wants to go back and apologize, but then I think about Carly and I want to increase the distance between Vin and me. Never thought I'd feel like that.
Never thought I'd be so pissed off at him that I couldn't even think about him without clenching my fists. What the fuck? How did things get so fucked up?
He knew. He knew that Mom bound my powers and never told me. I refused the choice to be protected with the spell she used for Carly, so she bound my ability to use dark magic. I'll have to ask Carly to fix it because when I attempted to reverse the spell in the airport it didn't work. I can't be having severe nausea and fatigue hitting me if I need to tap into the dark magic to protect my sister and me on our way back from Paris to LA.
Not sure what I can say to any of them. Can't help wondering if Rhia, Uncle Mal, Dad and everyone knew. If they knew she violated my powers without giving me a choice. I'm so sick of feeling like I'm...I'm unable to live my life the way I want. Did they really think I'd be like them? That I wouldn't have decided on my own that their path wasn't what I wanted for me?
We'll never know. The choice was taken from me. Well fuck them all, because I'm taking my power back. I'm through answering to any of them.
I never thought I'd be disgusted with calling myself a Spencer.
I just need to find Carly and get her home. I'll deal with the rest of it then. Fuck.