Love you like i do
Title: Love you like I do
Author: vam_story_lover
Rating: PG13-NC17
Pairing: Vam
Summary: Ville and Bam have split up. Ville was stupid and is sorry, but Bam isn't ready to forgive or forget. When Bam meets someone else, will Ville even have a chance to get Bam back. Or is it all over for good.
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone or anything mentioned. This story is made up and just a bit of fun.
Chapter Eight.
As Bam was waking from a peaceful sleep, dreaming of a pretty blonde, instead of a dark beauty, he heard voices around him. Then all of a sudden he felt ice cold water splash his face and shoulders. He gasped, screamed and bolted upright from his comfortable pillows. He opened his eyes as laughter filled his ears and saw Jess and Rabb standing on either side of his bed.
"You guys suck, what the hell did you do that for". He shivered as he got out of bed and Rabb handed him a towel.
"You've been in bed long enough bam, its nearly one in the afternoon". Jess smirked as he placed the jug on Bam's bedside table.
"I figured it would be you who threw water on me". Bam wiped his face , shoulders and dry his hair. He tossed the towel on the floor and picked up a random t-shirt that he had found next to the towel.
"Of course it was me, Rabb wouldn't of dared to wake you from the dream you were having". Bam sensed the teasing tone in his brothers voice and looked to Rabb, who had a slight blush to his cheeks as he became very interested with the tips of his shoes.
"What are you talking about". He said nervously, Jess just laughed.
"Oh don't even try it Bam, you were having a sex dream about Jonne". Jess could only snigger as Bam's face turned red.
"Ahh its ok Bam-Bam, we all have dreams like that, its perfectly normal". Jess walked over to Bam and patted him on the head, the way you would do with a dog.
"Oh so your telling me you have those dreams about Jonne then". Bam laughed. The question was supposed to be innocent and playful. But Bam knew he had struck a nerve in his older brother, when he saw his body stiffen slightly and a faint blush appear on his face. Jess took his hand away from Bam's head.
"Ha yeah right, lets go get you some food bro". Jess shoved Bam playfully and headed downstairs. Bam looked to Rabb.
"Was it just me or did he blush when I said that". Rabb just shrugged his shoulders and walked out the room.
Bam was even more confused by his brothers reaction when he wouldn't look at him when he had first walked into the kitchen, considering that was half an hour ago, it was pretty weird. And not very nice. Bam and Jess had gotten close again after Bam and Ville's break up. And now it seems Jess cant look at him after that silly comment Bam made in his room. Very weird. However Bam couldn't dwell on it for log as Johnny, Dico and Rake came through the door.
"Hey the studs awake, so have you called him yet". Johnny asked as he nicked a sandwich from Bam's plate. Bam giggled as Jess slapped Johnny upside the head for nicking it.
"Na not yet man". Bam sighed as he looked at his hand, Jonne's number still on his skin. He was nervous, was he really ready to move on from Ville. He did feel that way when Jonne kissed him last night, but he was still terrified to give his heart to someone else.
"Why not Bam, the guys hot and he is so into you". Johnny stated, his voice muffled by his mouth currently full with Bam's sandwich.
"I like him too, but I'm not sure if I'm ready yet". He sighed as he took a small bite on his other sandwich.
"Oh come on Bam. You have to move on. And Jonne is perfect". Johnny finished off the sandwich, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
"Don't you agree Jess". Jess had been quiet while Johnny talked. Bam looked to Jess expectantly and Jess finally shifted his gaze from Johnny to Bam and couldn't help the soft smile that engulfed his face.
"Of course Bam, you deserve to be happy". Jess didn't want to be jealous of Bam for getting together with Jonne. But he just couldn't help it.
Jonne's a great guy, go for it Bam". Rake chimed in. Jess tried to swallow the lump that formed in his throat as Bam smiled at him and jumped from his chair to give him a hug. Jess tried to hold the tears back as he heard Bam say.
"Thanks Jess I love you man, I'm going to call him right now".
Bam walked to the phone mounted on the wall on other side of the room. He was skittish as the ringing filled his ears, he almost lost his nerve and was about to put the phone down. When he heard a deep Finnish voice on the other end.
"Hi is this Jonne".
"Yes it is, who's this".
"Hi Jonne its Bam, Jess's brother".
"Oh Bam hi, how are you".
"I'm fine thanks, how are you". Jess could see his little brothers face light up as he spoke to Jonne. He had to walk out of the room. He couldn't listen to the laughter coming from Bam. Jess was completely torn. On one hand, he loved his brother very much and loved the fact that he seemed happy again. Yet on the other hand, he wanted Jonne for himself, he hated that Jonne didn't how much Jess liked him. He despised himself for feeling this way. He walked out of the kitchen, his stomach in sickening knots as he couldn't stand to hear anymore.
"Anyway I was just wondering if I could take you out sometime". Bam smiled at Jonne's giggle. The blonde twisted the phone cord round his finger and bit his lip.
"I'd love to Bam".
"That's great, when are you free next".
"Tomorrow night, if that's ok".
"Awesome, I'll pick you up at seven then".
"Ok I'll see you then cutie, bye".
"Bye Jonne". Bam put the phone down, leaned his back against the wall and smiled.
Bam was putting on the finishing touches to his eyeliner as he heard his door open. He glanced in the mirror and saw Jess walk through.
"Hey Jess". Bam put his eyeliner pencil down on the dresser and pulled on his blazer, checking the pockets, making sure he had his keys, phone and wallet.
"Hey Bam, I just wanted to see if you were ok". Bam looked up from tying his shoes.
"Yeah Jess I'm fine, I'm really looking forward to my date with Jonne". And he really was. He hadn't thought of Ville since he and Jonne kissed that night. He hadn't felt happy like this since.. He cant even remember.
"That's great Bam, I hope you have fun. Jonne is...really cool". Jess smiled at his brother. But the smile didn't reach his eyes. And Bam noticed.
"Jess are you ok man". Bam walked to his brother who was standing near the door and placed a gentle hand on his shoulder.
"Yeah Bam, I'm fine. You go on your date". Jess looked to Bam and smiled again.
"Ok man. I'll see you later tonight". Bam patted his shoulder and walked out the room, heading for his car. Jess sighed heavily and flopped on Bam's bed, laying on his back he let his tears flow.
Bam was felling the familiar butterflies in his stomach as he walked Jonne to his front door. The first date went well. Bam was glad he had made a effort for Jonne. He looked amazing. Snug blue jeans which sat on his hips just right, a silk purple dress shirt that clung to his small frame, soft looking blonde hair perfectly straight and his make up flawless. Bam had opted for a black dress shirt, black jeans and a black and sliver striped blazer. He was only able to put on his eyeliner because Ville had showed once and they both liked how it made his eyes sparkle. 'Oh no don't think about him now' Bam thought to himself.
"I had a great time Bam". Jonne smiled softly.
"I had a great time too, thanks for agreeing to go out with me". He blushed as he knew the kiss was coming. But he couldn't bring himself to make the first move, he wasn't sure why.
"You really suit eyeliner Bam". Jonne whispered softly, moving closer to Bam.
"Thank you. Ville showed me how to put it on". Bam cursed himself inwardly and squeezed his eyes shut. 'Stupid, why would you bring Ville into this'.
"I'm sorry I mentioned Ville". He sighed, looking to the pavement.
"Bam its ok". Jonne put a gentle hand on Bam's shoulder. Thus making Bam look Jonne in the eyes.
"No its not ok. I'm on a date with you and it went really well, and I mention him".
"Bam I said its fine. You and Ville were together for six years and he was your first love, he is bound to pop up every once in a while.. in there". Jonne tapped the side of Bam's head gently, near his temple.
"Even after this long". Bam hated the sound of his voice as it came out pathetically small.
"Yes I don't think you ever forget your first love. You just bury them to the back of your mind to make it easier to move on".
"I guess your right, he does pop up every now and again".
"That's ok Bam, I understand. Just.. make sure I'm in there too ok". Jonne smiled softly as he pushed the hand that was resting on Bam's shoulder through his curls.
"I don't think I could ever get you out of my head Jonne". Bam whispered. Jonne stomach flipped at Bam's words and he pressed his lips on Bam's, a barley there kiss which after a moment grew more heated. Bam pressed Jonne up against the door moaning as his body pressed tightly to Jonne's. Passion gripping both of them as their tongues wrestled with one another. Jonne's hand gripped Bam's curls even tighter as his other hand travelled up Bam's chest and tugged at his shirt, fisting it in his hand. They both came up for air as Bam's hands came to rest on Jonne's hips. They both breathed heavily resting their foreheads together.
"Wow". Bam's voice was harsh as he looked Jonne.
" Yeah that was.. definitely something". Jonne's voice cracked as he spoke, releasing Bam's shirt. They stood there in comfortable silence as their breathing returned to normal.
"I guess I should be getting in. I have a band practise tomorrow".
"Yeah ok, I should go to". Bam removed himself from Jonne's warm body and shoved his hands in his jeans pockets.
"Umm.. should I call you tomorrow". Bam asked, blushing at how flustered he was feeling. Jonne thought it was adorable.
"Of course Bam, I'm expecting you to call". Jonne giggled. Bam smiled and relaxed.
"Ok I'll talk to you tomorrow then". Bam kissed Jonne's cheek and walked back to his car.
"Bye handsome". Jonne smiled. Bam turned around and grinned.
"Bye gorgeous". As he opened his car door there was that same nagging feeling in his head, saying that he still wasn't over Ville yet.
Author: vam_story_lover
Rating: PG13-NC17
Pairing: Vam
Summary: Ville and Bam have split up. Ville was stupid and is sorry, but Bam isn't ready to forgive or forget. When Bam meets someone else, will Ville even have a chance to get Bam back. Or is it all over for good.
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone or anything mentioned. This story is made up and just a bit of fun.
Chapter Eight.
As Bam was waking from a peaceful sleep, dreaming of a pretty blonde, instead of a dark beauty, he heard voices around him. Then all of a sudden he felt ice cold water splash his face and shoulders. He gasped, screamed and bolted upright from his comfortable pillows. He opened his eyes as laughter filled his ears and saw Jess and Rabb standing on either side of his bed.
"You guys suck, what the hell did you do that for". He shivered as he got out of bed and Rabb handed him a towel.
"You've been in bed long enough bam, its nearly one in the afternoon". Jess smirked as he placed the jug on Bam's bedside table.
"I figured it would be you who threw water on me". Bam wiped his face , shoulders and dry his hair. He tossed the towel on the floor and picked up a random t-shirt that he had found next to the towel.
"Of course it was me, Rabb wouldn't of dared to wake you from the dream you were having". Bam sensed the teasing tone in his brothers voice and looked to Rabb, who had a slight blush to his cheeks as he became very interested with the tips of his shoes.
"What are you talking about". He said nervously, Jess just laughed.
"Oh don't even try it Bam, you were having a sex dream about Jonne". Jess could only snigger as Bam's face turned red.
"Ahh its ok Bam-Bam, we all have dreams like that, its perfectly normal". Jess walked over to Bam and patted him on the head, the way you would do with a dog.
"Oh so your telling me you have those dreams about Jonne then". Bam laughed. The question was supposed to be innocent and playful. But Bam knew he had struck a nerve in his older brother, when he saw his body stiffen slightly and a faint blush appear on his face. Jess took his hand away from Bam's head.
"Ha yeah right, lets go get you some food bro". Jess shoved Bam playfully and headed downstairs. Bam looked to Rabb.
"Was it just me or did he blush when I said that". Rabb just shrugged his shoulders and walked out the room.
Bam was even more confused by his brothers reaction when he wouldn't look at him when he had first walked into the kitchen, considering that was half an hour ago, it was pretty weird. And not very nice. Bam and Jess had gotten close again after Bam and Ville's break up. And now it seems Jess cant look at him after that silly comment Bam made in his room. Very weird. However Bam couldn't dwell on it for log as Johnny, Dico and Rake came through the door.
"Hey the studs awake, so have you called him yet". Johnny asked as he nicked a sandwich from Bam's plate. Bam giggled as Jess slapped Johnny upside the head for nicking it.
"Na not yet man". Bam sighed as he looked at his hand, Jonne's number still on his skin. He was nervous, was he really ready to move on from Ville. He did feel that way when Jonne kissed him last night, but he was still terrified to give his heart to someone else.
"Why not Bam, the guys hot and he is so into you". Johnny stated, his voice muffled by his mouth currently full with Bam's sandwich.
"I like him too, but I'm not sure if I'm ready yet". He sighed as he took a small bite on his other sandwich.
"Oh come on Bam. You have to move on. And Jonne is perfect". Johnny finished off the sandwich, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
"Don't you agree Jess". Jess had been quiet while Johnny talked. Bam looked to Jess expectantly and Jess finally shifted his gaze from Johnny to Bam and couldn't help the soft smile that engulfed his face.
"Of course Bam, you deserve to be happy". Jess didn't want to be jealous of Bam for getting together with Jonne. But he just couldn't help it.
Jonne's a great guy, go for it Bam". Rake chimed in. Jess tried to swallow the lump that formed in his throat as Bam smiled at him and jumped from his chair to give him a hug. Jess tried to hold the tears back as he heard Bam say.
"Thanks Jess I love you man, I'm going to call him right now".
Bam walked to the phone mounted on the wall on other side of the room. He was skittish as the ringing filled his ears, he almost lost his nerve and was about to put the phone down. When he heard a deep Finnish voice on the other end.
"Hi is this Jonne".
"Yes it is, who's this".
"Hi Jonne its Bam, Jess's brother".
"Oh Bam hi, how are you".
"I'm fine thanks, how are you". Jess could see his little brothers face light up as he spoke to Jonne. He had to walk out of the room. He couldn't listen to the laughter coming from Bam. Jess was completely torn. On one hand, he loved his brother very much and loved the fact that he seemed happy again. Yet on the other hand, he wanted Jonne for himself, he hated that Jonne didn't how much Jess liked him. He despised himself for feeling this way. He walked out of the kitchen, his stomach in sickening knots as he couldn't stand to hear anymore.
"Anyway I was just wondering if I could take you out sometime". Bam smiled at Jonne's giggle. The blonde twisted the phone cord round his finger and bit his lip.
"I'd love to Bam".
"That's great, when are you free next".
"Tomorrow night, if that's ok".
"Awesome, I'll pick you up at seven then".
"Ok I'll see you then cutie, bye".
"Bye Jonne". Bam put the phone down, leaned his back against the wall and smiled.
Bam was putting on the finishing touches to his eyeliner as he heard his door open. He glanced in the mirror and saw Jess walk through.
"Hey Jess". Bam put his eyeliner pencil down on the dresser and pulled on his blazer, checking the pockets, making sure he had his keys, phone and wallet.
"Hey Bam, I just wanted to see if you were ok". Bam looked up from tying his shoes.
"Yeah Jess I'm fine, I'm really looking forward to my date with Jonne". And he really was. He hadn't thought of Ville since he and Jonne kissed that night. He hadn't felt happy like this since.. He cant even remember.
"That's great Bam, I hope you have fun. Jonne is...really cool". Jess smiled at his brother. But the smile didn't reach his eyes. And Bam noticed.
"Jess are you ok man". Bam walked to his brother who was standing near the door and placed a gentle hand on his shoulder.
"Yeah Bam, I'm fine. You go on your date". Jess looked to Bam and smiled again.
"Ok man. I'll see you later tonight". Bam patted his shoulder and walked out the room, heading for his car. Jess sighed heavily and flopped on Bam's bed, laying on his back he let his tears flow.
Bam was felling the familiar butterflies in his stomach as he walked Jonne to his front door. The first date went well. Bam was glad he had made a effort for Jonne. He looked amazing. Snug blue jeans which sat on his hips just right, a silk purple dress shirt that clung to his small frame, soft looking blonde hair perfectly straight and his make up flawless. Bam had opted for a black dress shirt, black jeans and a black and sliver striped blazer. He was only able to put on his eyeliner because Ville had showed once and they both liked how it made his eyes sparkle. 'Oh no don't think about him now' Bam thought to himself.
"I had a great time Bam". Jonne smiled softly.
"I had a great time too, thanks for agreeing to go out with me". He blushed as he knew the kiss was coming. But he couldn't bring himself to make the first move, he wasn't sure why.
"You really suit eyeliner Bam". Jonne whispered softly, moving closer to Bam.
"Thank you. Ville showed me how to put it on". Bam cursed himself inwardly and squeezed his eyes shut. 'Stupid, why would you bring Ville into this'.
"I'm sorry I mentioned Ville". He sighed, looking to the pavement.
"Bam its ok". Jonne put a gentle hand on Bam's shoulder. Thus making Bam look Jonne in the eyes.
"No its not ok. I'm on a date with you and it went really well, and I mention him".
"Bam I said its fine. You and Ville were together for six years and he was your first love, he is bound to pop up every once in a while.. in there". Jonne tapped the side of Bam's head gently, near his temple.
"Even after this long". Bam hated the sound of his voice as it came out pathetically small.
"Yes I don't think you ever forget your first love. You just bury them to the back of your mind to make it easier to move on".
"I guess your right, he does pop up every now and again".
"That's ok Bam, I understand. Just.. make sure I'm in there too ok". Jonne smiled softly as he pushed the hand that was resting on Bam's shoulder through his curls.
"I don't think I could ever get you out of my head Jonne". Bam whispered. Jonne stomach flipped at Bam's words and he pressed his lips on Bam's, a barley there kiss which after a moment grew more heated. Bam pressed Jonne up against the door moaning as his body pressed tightly to Jonne's. Passion gripping both of them as their tongues wrestled with one another. Jonne's hand gripped Bam's curls even tighter as his other hand travelled up Bam's chest and tugged at his shirt, fisting it in his hand. They both came up for air as Bam's hands came to rest on Jonne's hips. They both breathed heavily resting their foreheads together.
"Wow". Bam's voice was harsh as he looked Jonne.
" Yeah that was.. definitely something". Jonne's voice cracked as he spoke, releasing Bam's shirt. They stood there in comfortable silence as their breathing returned to normal.
"I guess I should be getting in. I have a band practise tomorrow".
"Yeah ok, I should go to". Bam removed himself from Jonne's warm body and shoved his hands in his jeans pockets.
"Umm.. should I call you tomorrow". Bam asked, blushing at how flustered he was feeling. Jonne thought it was adorable.
"Of course Bam, I'm expecting you to call". Jonne giggled. Bam smiled and relaxed.
"Ok I'll talk to you tomorrow then". Bam kissed Jonne's cheek and walked back to his car.
"Bye handsome". Jonne smiled. Bam turned around and grinned.
"Bye gorgeous". As he opened his car door there was that same nagging feeling in his head, saying that he still wasn't over Ville yet.