He looked so fragile, he looked so small...and he wondered why he was still alive at all...

[slasher48]

Title: Anymore (All That's Left Are The Dregs)
Author: slasher48 / bad_bad_books
Rating: PG-13, because it's been a while, okay? ;)
Pairing: Unrequited Vam. Mostly just Ville ranting.
Disclaimer: Though it is very possible this happened, I am not especially certain, nor am I in Valo's hamper, checking up on whether it's true. Therefore, don't sue.
Summary: According to a

Comments

[lilafilly2]

FC?

[lilafilly2]

He was? I never knew. Oh, that even makes me want to hit someone. Ugh, that, like, hurt. Poor Ville. I've been watching Bam's shitstorm sadly for a while. I really did hope he would reconcile with Missy. He seemed happier.

This was so good. Props to you for making me emotional. Vam fic has failed to do so in a while. The laptop bit seemed so desperate; not to be a stalker, just to see if any vestige of his old friend is still there.

Yes!

[slasher48]

He was. I know, neither did I.

I'm right there with you. My faced wrinkled with all kinds of rage when I found that out; that's so, just, disrespectful. Something Bam isn't usually when faced with Valo, even when he is to anybody else. Including poor Missy -- which is why I suspect she hasn't come back, even though she clearly loved him.

Personally, I think he might be having his midlife crisis early. Luckily, everybody I know who's had one has hit bottom and rebounded. *waiting for that*

Thank you, Lil! Yeah, I seem to have a knack for that, huh?

It was supposed to be desperate. It's like where you and a friend are fighting, but you have to know they're okay, or if they're depressed over the fight, or if they're replacing you, or themselves...these are things that plague Valo as well.

:D ♥

[slasher48]

Yes, ma'am! :)

[irena_aneri]

I was at that show, too!

[irena_aneri]

Front row, left hand side of the stage. Slight closer to Mige than Ville. =]

[marjohn666valo]

i didn't know either...that's a tragedy in itslef. and wonderful narration. made my heart clench painfully...Bam, you idiot, just what the hell are you doing?

[slasher48]

It is. Bam himself is a tragedy.

Thank you!

*shakes head* Destroying himself. And there are so many reasons why he'd want to; I think mostly I haven't deserted him, as many haven't, because we want him to have a reason NOT to. I hope Ville's in that same category, but this is the time when he felt resentment just like any other human being would. :/

Thanks again! :D

[meduusje]

tackles you
yay more of your writing!

i loved this! cause its so damn true!
that silly stupid skater is going down, fast and he shouldn't take willa with him :(

[slasher48]

*is tackled and snuggles* Yes, love! More of it!

Thank you! Yes he is, but he should take Willa with him. Willa can be his trampoline, so that he'll bounce back and be more of the Bam we know and love. It doesn't necessarily mean Ville'll break down like Bam will; Ville plays at the miserable poet, but I think he's really actually a pretty content person. That's how he comes off to me, at least. Let's hope so, right? We want both of the boys back! :D

♥

[ashleigh_713]

I feel that way too, that V's miserable poet thing or miserable any other thing is for show and effect, who could blame him. I think he's not creatively content, but being single, wealthy and doing what you love for the most part definitely makes letting someone into your life a huge gamble.

I don't see this as Bam bashing, he is what he is and at the present time I think his demons and his pleasures outweigh the desire to think consequences at all. Really wasn't aware of the particulars of their distancing from each other. Actually thought it was something financial and that Bammie getting a tattoo of V was his way of saying " whatever it was, you mean more to me than you know"

As always, I love your writing and have missed it and you. The past year and a half has been one of death and illness-my husband died, my dad went from slight dementia to full blown, advanced Alzheimer's. that was within two weeks of each other. you learn a lot more than you ever wanted to know!

[slasher48]

I don't agree with that, actually. I think at heart, he is an artist (with all the inherent misery of that), and an artist who is content with what he's created, content for the most part with his life, but he plays up the aspect of how miserable he can be sometimes. His Scandinavian predisposition to melancholy

[n3l0_yz]

This makes me all kinds of sad. I can sympathize on both sides. Sometimes I'm the reasonable one and I usually snap and people get hurt and I have to apologize. I have a pretty big pride, so I can just imagine how hard it was for Ville to do that...especially at a concert.
Dammit Bam, wake up!
...on a different note. I am totally itching to write something...

[slasher48]

Yeah, I can imagine. I have been that person myself a time or two, though I usually rarely find it difficult to apologize. I just feel like Ville has more pride than he lets on, and it would be difficult for him.

Yes, fuck. Wake up, BamBam! Now!

*snicker* So do it? Writing starts by doing it, I think.