An Update and a Poll!
Title: The House That Man-Love Built
Author: myforgottenpain
Pairing: Vam, Johnny Knoxville/Ryan Dunn… actually multiple pairings might be more appropriate…
Rating: R for content and ES for Excessive Smut.
Summary: What brought Bam, Ville, Johnny, and Ryan together….
Disclaimer: I don't own anything connected to Ville Valo, Bam Margera, Ryan Dunn, or Johnny Knoxville. Nor do I imply that in reality they are anything but friends.
Authors Notes: This started off as a crack fic for Jezebel1389… but it deserves its own mini series. Enjoy! This too is dedicated to the lovely Jezzie! The swimwear featured in this chapter:
Ville Valo: http://www.aussiebum.com.au/en/swimwear/index.php?modelid=147
This couldn’t be happening… no…not now… no….
Johnny looked up at the sky above him, wanting to shake his fist in anger at whatever deity lingered in those fluffy white clouds, the few that were out today anyways. Why? Why him? Sighing his turned his attention back to the other three men that he shared his home with.
Kneeling behind Ville, rubbing sun screen across his skin, was Bam Margera; his own body already glistened from when Ville had rubbed it in just moments ago.
Sitting in front of Ville was Ryan, head hung in relaxation as Ville’s hands worked over his skin. His royal blue swim trunks bold against their mutually pale skin. They would definitely have to spend more time in the sun. A lot more time... rubbing oils and coco butter over each others skin....
Those hands, Johnny thought to himself. He was memorized by the gentle way that Ville touched the other man. It made his stomach burn with desire, watching them caressing each other; it was almost too much to bear.
Finally, to Johnny’s relief, Ryan got up and walked over to him; bringing the sun screen with him. “Want to go swimming with us?”
“Of course.” Johnny said, pulling his shirt off, sitting down on the bench so Ryan could cover him in the protective lotion from the UV light of the sun. While Ryan did that, Johnny watched Bam as he ran for the diving board, a flash of deep purple swim trunks with just the slightest hint of red in the color, making Johnny think of wine. With a rebel cry, Bam cannon balled from the diving board. Ville slowly walked by Johnny and Ryan, his eyes on Bam, unaware of the way Johnny was looking at him.
The way he moved, the way the breeze tossed Ville’s hair, the way the light danced over his skin making it glisten, it all sent shivers through Johnny’s body. And when it didn’t seem like things could get hotter, he had to deal with Ville’s swimwear. His black nylon trunks that barely passed as anything other than underwear, they hung low on his hips, proudly showing off his heartagram tattoo, on the verge of being pornographic. They were snug on the singers body, modeled against him, giving Johnny full view of the heat he was packing.
Johnny gripped the crimson red fabric of his own swim trunks, the hair on his arms rising as he imagined ripping the flimsy fabric from the other man's body, leaving him free to ravish the other man senseless.
He honestly wasn’t trying to be seductive, or even get under Johnny’s skin, and yet he did. Standing on the edge of the pool at the deep end, Ville gracefully dove into the pool. His slender frame broke the surface, splashing water in what seemed like a small amount compared to the mess Ryan, Bam, and even Johnny himself was about to make.
Through the glistening water, Johnny could just make out the form of Ville as he slide through the clear liquid. The Jackass star’s eyes grew when Ville finally came up for air. He leaned against the side, water cascading down his face, neck and shoulders making him seem even more exotic some how.
Bam climbed out of the pool, racing past Ville as he made his way to the diving board again.
Ville leaned his chin on his arms as he watched Bam, smiling at his lover who was goofing around, making a big dramatic production before he finally jumped. Ville clapped his hands, as Bam paddled over him, wrapping his arms around the Finn’s slender waist.
They smiled, and laughed, and splashed one another, while Johnny continued to watch the water moving over their flesh. His mind conjured up images of showers, baths, of midnight swims; for all of them, some of them, and especially a certain someone.
Ryan finished applying the lotion and ran off to join their friends. He jumped off the side, splashing Ville and Bam in the process.
Slowly Johnny got up and walked over to the same side his lover had just jumped off of. Ryan and Bam were caught up in some sort of water wrestling match, while Ville had drifted away from them. He was leaning on the side of the pool once more; his green eyes falling on Johnny when he sat next to him.
Ville raised his eyebrow as if to silently ask Johnny why he wasn’t jumping into the pool himself. Looking back at Bam he ran his hand over his hair to further smooth it back. It fell in wet spirals around his face, dark to the point it was almost black. His eyelashes even seemed darker, fuller thanks to the wetness on them.
“Not right now…” Johnny answered the silent question. “I’ll catch you when you aren’t paying attention and really soak you then.” Johnny replied.
Ville chuckled, resting his cheek against his arms as he continued watching Bam and Ryan.
“You were very graceful just then…” Johnny said softly, unable to resist touching the other man; he placed his hand tentively on Ville’s head, expecting him to pull away. When Ville didn’t, Johnny played with the other man’s long locks.
There was suddenly a look of almost nervousness in Ville’s face, especially in his eyes. He was silent, complacent, which just didn’t seem to fit him. Feeling some what emboldened because of it, Johnny gently pulled Ville’s hair away from his neck, brushing his fingertips against the exposed portion of Ville’s skin.
Johnny flinched when Ville did, yanking his hand back when Ville suddenly moved. Bringing his feet up, placing them against the wall of the pool, Ville pushed away from Johnny; gliding over to Bam and Ryan. For a moment their eyes remained on one another, before Ville joined in their game.
Eventually Johnny slide into the water and swam over to the other three men, joining them in their game.
“Must you really go?” Bam asked a slight pout on his lip that was positively adorable.
Ryan chuckled and nodded, “Yes I do.” They were all sprawled out in different parts of the living room, freshly showered, and discussing Ryan’s approaching trip back to Westchester for a family reunion. “You are welcome to come along.”
Bam smiled, “I would… I’m sure my own family would love to see me. But I’m scared of leaving Ville and Johnny alone together. We’ll come back and either they would have killed each other by maiming each other in a bloody fight to the death…”
“Or fucked each other to death.” Ryan put in making Bam laugh.
“I’m going to miss you so much.” Johnny said softly, snuggling against his lover. He wasn’t even just taking into consideration the fact he was going to be stuck in a house with his ex boyfriend that he was lusting after, and his boyfriend, who was he majorly lusting after; and get getting nothing from either of them. Johnny was honestly going to miss Ryan, the same way he always missed the younger man when they were forced to be apart.
However, they didn’t have much of a choice. Ryan’s family was never too keen on him picking a man as a lover, his feelings for Bam had been worse, but his relationship with Johnny was the breaking point. They saw Johnny as the ultimate corrupter of their son. It had been excusable when it was just Bam, Ryan and their mutual friends… all too young and dumb to know better.
But Johnny was significantly older than all of them. He should know better. Worse yet, he was married… with a baby on the way. He should have known better! They had yelled at Ryan, even to this day. The moment any mention of Johnny Knoxville came up… the nearest family member would yell:he should have known better!
In the Dunn household, Johnny Knoxville was the devil himself. For with Johnny came Jackass… and then Viva La Bam… and what they saw as the utter desecration of their family member.
What made matters worse, was what happened right after Bam had left them to be with Ville. Johnny had gotten completely trashed, gone to Ryan’s parents house and announced his undying devotion to their son. That had definitely not gone over well with his parents, and for the first time in Ryan’s memory he had been uninvited to all family functions.
Only recently had Ryan been welcomed back, and the only thing he could do, is be thankful they never learned how close they had been to Bam. Needless to say, his family didn’t care for Johnny before, now they really hated him. Johnny was banded from coming within five hundred feet of any Dunn family gathering, especially if Ryan intended on being an active member of the family.
“I’m impressed.” Ryan said as he walked down the staircase with Bam.
“You and me both.” Bam said their eyes on a pair of figures in the living room. “I tried to warn Johnny… Ville is stubborn… he will not make this easy for him.”
“I have a feeling the more Johnny tries to break him down, the more Ville wants to resist giving in.” Ryan said, stopping at the bottom of the stairs.
“You are exactly right.” Bam said crossing his arms as he watched what was happening with the two oldest members of the house.
Ville was sitting on the couch, writing in his notebook of random ideas.
Johnny was sitting on the arm of the couch, playing with Ville’s hair. He was talking to the singer softly, trying to coax him into sharing a conversation. But Ville had remained strong for the last week, refusing to say one word to the older man.
He let Johnny play with his hair for a moment or two before getting up and quietly moving away from him. Ville’s eyes were down on the notebook in front of him, but Bam could tell he wasn’t reading it. Smiling finally, but at the two youngest men in the house, Ville walked over to them; well aware of the way Johnny was looking at him. “Leaving us so soon?” He asked, hugging Ryan, kissing his cheek.
“Are you going to miss me?” Ryan asked, returning the hug.
“Of course.” Ville said, moving so he could pull Bam close, kissing his lover on the cheek.
Ryan slowly started moving over to Johnny, who was walking over to him. They reached out for each other, pulling each other close for a loving hug. “I wish you could come with me.” Ryan said softly into Johnny’s ear, rubbing his back.
“I wish I could too.” Johnny whispered back.
“I’ll be back before you know it.” Ryan said with a smile, playing with Johnny’s hair. “Until I come back… do try and behave your self.” While still holding Johnny close, he looked at Ville and Bam. “Do you think you two can get along… just for the next few days while I’m gone?”
Ville looked down for a moment, silent while Bam rubbed his chest. Leaning in, he whispered into Bam’s ear, placing his hand on Bam’s cheek, kissing the other side.
“Ville said he will be good while you’re gone Ry’.” Bam said for Ville.
“While continuing to give me the silent treatment?” Johnny asked, crossing his arms.
Ryan chuckled, reaching out to rub Johnny’s arm. “Now Ville… if you really wanted to be good, you’ll end this silly silent treatment, you’ve proven your point.”
Johnny looked to Ville, the corner of his mouth turning up. “Well?”
Bam grinned, looking up at Ville, “Willa baby?”
A sheepish smile formed on Ville’s lips, as he looked down at Bam’s neck. He shook his head, pressing his face against Bam’s neck.
Bam chuckled, pulling Ville close. “I’ll work on getting him to end the silent treatment.”
“Good enough.” Ryan turned back to Johnny, pulling his man close, kissing him deeply. “I love you… and I’ll call when I get to Pennsylvania, alright?”
Johnny sighed sadly, rubbing Ryan’s side. For a moment, he kept his eyes on the floor, trying not to let the sadness he was feeling overwhelm him. “Alright.” He managed to whisper, looking up at Ryan. “I love you too.” He leaned in and kissed Ryan again, “Have fun.”
“I won’t… it’s going to be horribly boring and I just know I am going to miss something fabulous here.” Ryan said with a fake pout that made them chuckle. He kissed Ville and Bam each on the cheek before leaving with Johnny to go to the airport.
“How do you do it?” Johnny asked, leaning back in his lawn chair, cigarette dangling from his lips, a cold brew sitting on his thigh, dampening the faded blue material of his jeans, his hand holding it loosely.
“Well first you have to learn how to balance on it…” Bam started, smiling at Johnny before attempting to grind down the railing on the front steps.
“That’s not what I meant asshole.” Johnny teased, watching as Bam grabbed his skateboard, running up the stairs to try again. “You know…” He paused when Bam attempted to go down the railing again, this time succeeding. “I put that in for you.”
Bam looked up at Johnny, his skateboard gliding down the sidewalk without him, stopping when it hit the grass of the front yard. “What.”
Johnny plucked his cigarette from his lips, tapping it over the yard. “I’m old Bam, but I’m not that old. I have no use for a railing, and I hate them personally… they get in the way when you are trying to run away… or run to people for that matter.”
Bam slowly made his way over to Johnny. “So… you did it for me?” He asked softly, finally looking at the older man.
“I wanted you to have something to skate on… I couldn’t exactly build a giant skate ramp for you.”
Bam grinned, “Aww… but…why not?”
Johnny chuckled and pulled Bam into his lap. “I would have… for you… you do know that right?”
Bam nodded, leaning against Johnny for a moment. “I know you would have.” He said softly, eyes closing as Johnny played with his hair. “I know you would have done anything in your power to make me happy.” He looked up then and meet Johnny’s gaze. “You do know I was always happy right? I didn’t leave because I was jealous or mad, or even hurt.”
Johnny sighed and nodded, “I know…”
“I just… felt stronger about Ville. And I knew it wasn’t fair to continue our relationship when I wanted to be with someone else… when I was more interested in Ville… and not with you two.” Bam explained, touching Johnny’s cheek.
“I know... by then me and Ryan were so into each other… we weren’t really giving you the time or the attention you deserved. We were glad you found Ville… we knew you would be happy, and this probably sounds selfish… but we knew it would leave us open to have more time with each other.”
“That’s no more selfish than me wanting Ville all by myself. I’m sure if I had asked Ville to be with us then, he probably would have done it-like now-eventually. I didn’t want to share him… I wanted everything he could give me…and I wanted it just for me.” Bam said, lying on Johnny again.
“So we were both selfish… it started out you and me.” Johnny said rubbing Bam’s back once more. “Then you, me and Ryan…” He continued, remembering how nice it was to hold the skater in his arms. “Then it was just me and Ryan… and you and Ville.”
“And now we are together again.” Bam whispered eyes closed in contentment, feeling the old flood of memories and feelings washing over him. He missed lying in Johnny’s arms it just felt so nice, so right. He was so glad that Ville was alright with this, he wanted Ville to know the kind of love he could get from Johnny and Ryan. He wanted them all to be together again.
“You never answered my question.” Johnny said softly.
“That’s because the question made no sense.”
Johnny smiled, “How can you handle being away from Ville when he’s on tour… when he is on the other side of the world? You were across the country and I missed you terribly. Ryan has been gone for a few days and I feel like I want to die. Ville is on the other side of my property and I can’t stop thinking about him.”
Bam chuckled, pressing his face against Johnny’s neck. “I won’t lie and say it isn’t hard, because it is. I about die every time he has to leave, we try to see each other as much as we can…. But it’s not the easiest thing in the world. It’s hard to maintain the image of heterosexual friends, when you are so in love with someone.” Bam paused for a moment, eyes closing as he found back the tears that wanted to run down his cheeks. “It’s those nights that I miss you and Ryan even more. We were never apart from each other long… and even then… there was always at least one of you to keep me company.”
“Are you doing this because you are afraid to be alone?” Johnny asked softly.
“Yes and no… it made me realize how much I missed you both. How much I still loved you both. I want to be here with you guys… but in the same hand I can’t let go of Ville. His love is so precious to me…. I couldn’t bear to loose him.” Bam whispered.
“And that’s where we find ourselves…” Johnny said softly, eyes closing as he pressed his nose against Bam’s hair, taking in a deep breath of his scent.
Bam sat up slowly, feeling strangely reluctant to leave the older man’s embrace. He sniffed back his tears, smiling at Johnny. “Thank you… for welcoming me back; and for your patience… well sort of patience with Ville.”
Johnny chuckled, “You’re worth it Bam… and Ville will be too… once he gives a chance.”
“And then we can be together again.” Bam whispered, running his fingers along Johnny’s neck. Drawing in a breath he jumped to his feet, plastering a goofy smile on his face. “I think I’m going to go skating for a little bit, clear my mind… do some thinking…”
“Thinking and skating… better be careful…” Johnny teased, getting up.
“Ass… you don’t have to stay out here...” Bam said, walking over to grab his skateboard. Just as he was about to step on it and pop it up, he thought better, and instead bent over to pick it up. He prolonged the moment, letting Johnny check out his ass.
Johnny gladly took the sight in, remember what he had been like to be with Bam as lovers… wanting that time back. “Don’t go to far lovely…”
“I won’t…” Bam said slowly standing up, bringing the skateboard with him as he walked back over to Johnny. He placed his free hand on Johnny’s chest, his eyes falling closed when Johnny touched his side.
“And while you are gone… I’ll and see about bounding with Ville.” Johnny whispered, kissing the corner of Bam’s mouth.
“You said you would behave!” Bam cried smacking Johnny on the chest.
Johnny rubbed the spot where Bam had struck him in mock hurt. “I will…” Johnny promised, backing away from Bam so he could go inside. “But that’s why I said you shouldn’t go far. God only knows…I might just need you to restrain me from that sexy man in there.”
Bam chuckled, tossing his skateboard down, “I’ll be back in fifteen.”
“See you then!” Johnny called, jogging into the house as Bam went skating away.
I have a poll for you guys to complete! I have my ideas about what will happen between Mr. Knoxville and Mr. Valo... and while I do not intend to reveal them for several more chapters...I wanted to see what my readers thought! If this doesn't work, just answer them in the comment section. :D
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Author: myforgottenpain
Pairing: Vam, Johnny Knoxville/Ryan Dunn… actually multiple pairings might be more appropriate…
Rating: R for content and ES for Excessive Smut.
Summary: What brought Bam, Ville, Johnny, and Ryan together….
Disclaimer: I don't own anything connected to Ville Valo, Bam Margera, Ryan Dunn, or Johnny Knoxville. Nor do I imply that in reality they are anything but friends.
Authors Notes: This started off as a crack fic for Jezebel1389… but it deserves its own mini series. Enjoy! This too is dedicated to the lovely Jezzie! The swimwear featured in this chapter:
Ville Valo: http://www.aussiebum.com.au/en/swimwear/index.php?modelid=147
This couldn’t be happening… no…not now… no….
Johnny looked up at the sky above him, wanting to shake his fist in anger at whatever deity lingered in those fluffy white clouds, the few that were out today anyways. Why? Why him? Sighing his turned his attention back to the other three men that he shared his home with.
Kneeling behind Ville, rubbing sun screen across his skin, was Bam Margera; his own body already glistened from when Ville had rubbed it in just moments ago.
Sitting in front of Ville was Ryan, head hung in relaxation as Ville’s hands worked over his skin. His royal blue swim trunks bold against their mutually pale skin. They would definitely have to spend more time in the sun. A lot more time... rubbing oils and coco butter over each others skin....
Those hands, Johnny thought to himself. He was memorized by the gentle way that Ville touched the other man. It made his stomach burn with desire, watching them caressing each other; it was almost too much to bear.
Finally, to Johnny’s relief, Ryan got up and walked over to him; bringing the sun screen with him. “Want to go swimming with us?”
“Of course.” Johnny said, pulling his shirt off, sitting down on the bench so Ryan could cover him in the protective lotion from the UV light of the sun. While Ryan did that, Johnny watched Bam as he ran for the diving board, a flash of deep purple swim trunks with just the slightest hint of red in the color, making Johnny think of wine. With a rebel cry, Bam cannon balled from the diving board. Ville slowly walked by Johnny and Ryan, his eyes on Bam, unaware of the way Johnny was looking at him.
The way he moved, the way the breeze tossed Ville’s hair, the way the light danced over his skin making it glisten, it all sent shivers through Johnny’s body. And when it didn’t seem like things could get hotter, he had to deal with Ville’s swimwear. His black nylon trunks that barely passed as anything other than underwear, they hung low on his hips, proudly showing off his heartagram tattoo, on the verge of being pornographic. They were snug on the singers body, modeled against him, giving Johnny full view of the heat he was packing.
Johnny gripped the crimson red fabric of his own swim trunks, the hair on his arms rising as he imagined ripping the flimsy fabric from the other man's body, leaving him free to ravish the other man senseless.
He honestly wasn’t trying to be seductive, or even get under Johnny’s skin, and yet he did. Standing on the edge of the pool at the deep end, Ville gracefully dove into the pool. His slender frame broke the surface, splashing water in what seemed like a small amount compared to the mess Ryan, Bam, and even Johnny himself was about to make.
Through the glistening water, Johnny could just make out the form of Ville as he slide through the clear liquid. The Jackass star’s eyes grew when Ville finally came up for air. He leaned against the side, water cascading down his face, neck and shoulders making him seem even more exotic some how.
Bam climbed out of the pool, racing past Ville as he made his way to the diving board again.
Ville leaned his chin on his arms as he watched Bam, smiling at his lover who was goofing around, making a big dramatic production before he finally jumped. Ville clapped his hands, as Bam paddled over him, wrapping his arms around the Finn’s slender waist.
They smiled, and laughed, and splashed one another, while Johnny continued to watch the water moving over their flesh. His mind conjured up images of showers, baths, of midnight swims; for all of them, some of them, and especially a certain someone.
Ryan finished applying the lotion and ran off to join their friends. He jumped off the side, splashing Ville and Bam in the process.
Slowly Johnny got up and walked over to the same side his lover had just jumped off of. Ryan and Bam were caught up in some sort of water wrestling match, while Ville had drifted away from them. He was leaning on the side of the pool once more; his green eyes falling on Johnny when he sat next to him.
Ville raised his eyebrow as if to silently ask Johnny why he wasn’t jumping into the pool himself. Looking back at Bam he ran his hand over his hair to further smooth it back. It fell in wet spirals around his face, dark to the point it was almost black. His eyelashes even seemed darker, fuller thanks to the wetness on them.
“Not right now…” Johnny answered the silent question. “I’ll catch you when you aren’t paying attention and really soak you then.” Johnny replied.
Ville chuckled, resting his cheek against his arms as he continued watching Bam and Ryan.
“You were very graceful just then…” Johnny said softly, unable to resist touching the other man; he placed his hand tentively on Ville’s head, expecting him to pull away. When Ville didn’t, Johnny played with the other man’s long locks.
There was suddenly a look of almost nervousness in Ville’s face, especially in his eyes. He was silent, complacent, which just didn’t seem to fit him. Feeling some what emboldened because of it, Johnny gently pulled Ville’s hair away from his neck, brushing his fingertips against the exposed portion of Ville’s skin.
Johnny flinched when Ville did, yanking his hand back when Ville suddenly moved. Bringing his feet up, placing them against the wall of the pool, Ville pushed away from Johnny; gliding over to Bam and Ryan. For a moment their eyes remained on one another, before Ville joined in their game.
Eventually Johnny slide into the water and swam over to the other three men, joining them in their game.
“Must you really go?” Bam asked a slight pout on his lip that was positively adorable.
Ryan chuckled and nodded, “Yes I do.” They were all sprawled out in different parts of the living room, freshly showered, and discussing Ryan’s approaching trip back to Westchester for a family reunion. “You are welcome to come along.”
Bam smiled, “I would… I’m sure my own family would love to see me. But I’m scared of leaving Ville and Johnny alone together. We’ll come back and either they would have killed each other by maiming each other in a bloody fight to the death…”
“Or fucked each other to death.” Ryan put in making Bam laugh.
“I’m going to miss you so much.” Johnny said softly, snuggling against his lover. He wasn’t even just taking into consideration the fact he was going to be stuck in a house with his ex boyfriend that he was lusting after, and his boyfriend, who was he majorly lusting after; and get getting nothing from either of them. Johnny was honestly going to miss Ryan, the same way he always missed the younger man when they were forced to be apart.
However, they didn’t have much of a choice. Ryan’s family was never too keen on him picking a man as a lover, his feelings for Bam had been worse, but his relationship with Johnny was the breaking point. They saw Johnny as the ultimate corrupter of their son. It had been excusable when it was just Bam, Ryan and their mutual friends… all too young and dumb to know better.
But Johnny was significantly older than all of them. He should know better. Worse yet, he was married… with a baby on the way. He should have known better! They had yelled at Ryan, even to this day. The moment any mention of Johnny Knoxville came up… the nearest family member would yell:he should have known better!
In the Dunn household, Johnny Knoxville was the devil himself. For with Johnny came Jackass… and then Viva La Bam… and what they saw as the utter desecration of their family member.
What made matters worse, was what happened right after Bam had left them to be with Ville. Johnny had gotten completely trashed, gone to Ryan’s parents house and announced his undying devotion to their son. That had definitely not gone over well with his parents, and for the first time in Ryan’s memory he had been uninvited to all family functions.
Only recently had Ryan been welcomed back, and the only thing he could do, is be thankful they never learned how close they had been to Bam. Needless to say, his family didn’t care for Johnny before, now they really hated him. Johnny was banded from coming within five hundred feet of any Dunn family gathering, especially if Ryan intended on being an active member of the family.
“I’m impressed.” Ryan said as he walked down the staircase with Bam.
“You and me both.” Bam said their eyes on a pair of figures in the living room. “I tried to warn Johnny… Ville is stubborn… he will not make this easy for him.”
“I have a feeling the more Johnny tries to break him down, the more Ville wants to resist giving in.” Ryan said, stopping at the bottom of the stairs.
“You are exactly right.” Bam said crossing his arms as he watched what was happening with the two oldest members of the house.
Ville was sitting on the couch, writing in his notebook of random ideas.
Johnny was sitting on the arm of the couch, playing with Ville’s hair. He was talking to the singer softly, trying to coax him into sharing a conversation. But Ville had remained strong for the last week, refusing to say one word to the older man.
He let Johnny play with his hair for a moment or two before getting up and quietly moving away from him. Ville’s eyes were down on the notebook in front of him, but Bam could tell he wasn’t reading it. Smiling finally, but at the two youngest men in the house, Ville walked over to them; well aware of the way Johnny was looking at him. “Leaving us so soon?” He asked, hugging Ryan, kissing his cheek.
“Are you going to miss me?” Ryan asked, returning the hug.
“Of course.” Ville said, moving so he could pull Bam close, kissing his lover on the cheek.
Ryan slowly started moving over to Johnny, who was walking over to him. They reached out for each other, pulling each other close for a loving hug. “I wish you could come with me.” Ryan said softly into Johnny’s ear, rubbing his back.
“I wish I could too.” Johnny whispered back.
“I’ll be back before you know it.” Ryan said with a smile, playing with Johnny’s hair. “Until I come back… do try and behave your self.” While still holding Johnny close, he looked at Ville and Bam. “Do you think you two can get along… just for the next few days while I’m gone?”
Ville looked down for a moment, silent while Bam rubbed his chest. Leaning in, he whispered into Bam’s ear, placing his hand on Bam’s cheek, kissing the other side.
“Ville said he will be good while you’re gone Ry’.” Bam said for Ville.
“While continuing to give me the silent treatment?” Johnny asked, crossing his arms.
Ryan chuckled, reaching out to rub Johnny’s arm. “Now Ville… if you really wanted to be good, you’ll end this silly silent treatment, you’ve proven your point.”
Johnny looked to Ville, the corner of his mouth turning up. “Well?”
Bam grinned, looking up at Ville, “Willa baby?”
A sheepish smile formed on Ville’s lips, as he looked down at Bam’s neck. He shook his head, pressing his face against Bam’s neck.
Bam chuckled, pulling Ville close. “I’ll work on getting him to end the silent treatment.”
“Good enough.” Ryan turned back to Johnny, pulling his man close, kissing him deeply. “I love you… and I’ll call when I get to Pennsylvania, alright?”
Johnny sighed sadly, rubbing Ryan’s side. For a moment, he kept his eyes on the floor, trying not to let the sadness he was feeling overwhelm him. “Alright.” He managed to whisper, looking up at Ryan. “I love you too.” He leaned in and kissed Ryan again, “Have fun.”
“I won’t… it’s going to be horribly boring and I just know I am going to miss something fabulous here.” Ryan said with a fake pout that made them chuckle. He kissed Ville and Bam each on the cheek before leaving with Johnny to go to the airport.
“How do you do it?” Johnny asked, leaning back in his lawn chair, cigarette dangling from his lips, a cold brew sitting on his thigh, dampening the faded blue material of his jeans, his hand holding it loosely.
“Well first you have to learn how to balance on it…” Bam started, smiling at Johnny before attempting to grind down the railing on the front steps.
“That’s not what I meant asshole.” Johnny teased, watching as Bam grabbed his skateboard, running up the stairs to try again. “You know…” He paused when Bam attempted to go down the railing again, this time succeeding. “I put that in for you.”
Bam looked up at Johnny, his skateboard gliding down the sidewalk without him, stopping when it hit the grass of the front yard. “What.”
Johnny plucked his cigarette from his lips, tapping it over the yard. “I’m old Bam, but I’m not that old. I have no use for a railing, and I hate them personally… they get in the way when you are trying to run away… or run to people for that matter.”
Bam slowly made his way over to Johnny. “So… you did it for me?” He asked softly, finally looking at the older man.
“I wanted you to have something to skate on… I couldn’t exactly build a giant skate ramp for you.”
Bam grinned, “Aww… but…why not?”
Johnny chuckled and pulled Bam into his lap. “I would have… for you… you do know that right?”
Bam nodded, leaning against Johnny for a moment. “I know you would have.” He said softly, eyes closing as Johnny played with his hair. “I know you would have done anything in your power to make me happy.” He looked up then and meet Johnny’s gaze. “You do know I was always happy right? I didn’t leave because I was jealous or mad, or even hurt.”
Johnny sighed and nodded, “I know…”
“I just… felt stronger about Ville. And I knew it wasn’t fair to continue our relationship when I wanted to be with someone else… when I was more interested in Ville… and not with you two.” Bam explained, touching Johnny’s cheek.
“I know... by then me and Ryan were so into each other… we weren’t really giving you the time or the attention you deserved. We were glad you found Ville… we knew you would be happy, and this probably sounds selfish… but we knew it would leave us open to have more time with each other.”
“That’s no more selfish than me wanting Ville all by myself. I’m sure if I had asked Ville to be with us then, he probably would have done it-like now-eventually. I didn’t want to share him… I wanted everything he could give me…and I wanted it just for me.” Bam said, lying on Johnny again.
“So we were both selfish… it started out you and me.” Johnny said rubbing Bam’s back once more. “Then you, me and Ryan…” He continued, remembering how nice it was to hold the skater in his arms. “Then it was just me and Ryan… and you and Ville.”
“And now we are together again.” Bam whispered eyes closed in contentment, feeling the old flood of memories and feelings washing over him. He missed lying in Johnny’s arms it just felt so nice, so right. He was so glad that Ville was alright with this, he wanted Ville to know the kind of love he could get from Johnny and Ryan. He wanted them all to be together again.
“You never answered my question.” Johnny said softly.
“That’s because the question made no sense.”
Johnny smiled, “How can you handle being away from Ville when he’s on tour… when he is on the other side of the world? You were across the country and I missed you terribly. Ryan has been gone for a few days and I feel like I want to die. Ville is on the other side of my property and I can’t stop thinking about him.”
Bam chuckled, pressing his face against Johnny’s neck. “I won’t lie and say it isn’t hard, because it is. I about die every time he has to leave, we try to see each other as much as we can…. But it’s not the easiest thing in the world. It’s hard to maintain the image of heterosexual friends, when you are so in love with someone.” Bam paused for a moment, eyes closing as he found back the tears that wanted to run down his cheeks. “It’s those nights that I miss you and Ryan even more. We were never apart from each other long… and even then… there was always at least one of you to keep me company.”
“Are you doing this because you are afraid to be alone?” Johnny asked softly.
“Yes and no… it made me realize how much I missed you both. How much I still loved you both. I want to be here with you guys… but in the same hand I can’t let go of Ville. His love is so precious to me…. I couldn’t bear to loose him.” Bam whispered.
“And that’s where we find ourselves…” Johnny said softly, eyes closing as he pressed his nose against Bam’s hair, taking in a deep breath of his scent.
Bam sat up slowly, feeling strangely reluctant to leave the older man’s embrace. He sniffed back his tears, smiling at Johnny. “Thank you… for welcoming me back; and for your patience… well sort of patience with Ville.”
Johnny chuckled, “You’re worth it Bam… and Ville will be too… once he gives a chance.”
“And then we can be together again.” Bam whispered, running his fingers along Johnny’s neck. Drawing in a breath he jumped to his feet, plastering a goofy smile on his face. “I think I’m going to go skating for a little bit, clear my mind… do some thinking…”
“Thinking and skating… better be careful…” Johnny teased, getting up.
“Ass… you don’t have to stay out here...” Bam said, walking over to grab his skateboard. Just as he was about to step on it and pop it up, he thought better, and instead bent over to pick it up. He prolonged the moment, letting Johnny check out his ass.
Johnny gladly took the sight in, remember what he had been like to be with Bam as lovers… wanting that time back. “Don’t go to far lovely…”
“I won’t…” Bam said slowly standing up, bringing the skateboard with him as he walked back over to Johnny. He placed his free hand on Johnny’s chest, his eyes falling closed when Johnny touched his side.
“And while you are gone… I’ll and see about bounding with Ville.” Johnny whispered, kissing the corner of Bam’s mouth.
“You said you would behave!” Bam cried smacking Johnny on the chest.
Johnny rubbed the spot where Bam had struck him in mock hurt. “I will…” Johnny promised, backing away from Bam so he could go inside. “But that’s why I said you shouldn’t go far. God only knows…I might just need you to restrain me from that sexy man in there.”
Bam chuckled, tossing his skateboard down, “I’ll be back in fifteen.”
“See you then!” Johnny called, jogging into the house as Bam went skating away.
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