;_;
back from holidays, back to old weight (last year). i must have gained 5 kg, but i'm not sure, i'm too fcking scared to weigh myself. i guess i took a break. a big fattening break.
also, i have started to throw up. i never could and i used laxatives, but somehow i got myself into this. i don't do it on a daily base, but i think i would if i could. but i can't, i'm rarely home alone. it must be a good thing to not have a lot of opportunities to throw up, but it doesn't feel like a good thing. of course not.
i hate my fat body. and even worse: some of my pants don't fit me well anymore -_-'
screw this. let me be tiny..
also, i have started to throw up. i never could and i used laxatives, but somehow i got myself into this. i don't do it on a daily base, but i think i would if i could. but i can't, i'm rarely home alone. it must be a good thing to not have a lot of opportunities to throw up, but it doesn't feel like a good thing. of course not.
i hate my fat body. and even worse: some of my pants don't fit me well anymore -_-'
screw this. let me be tiny..