nothing.
today was no better. i missed philosophy of competitive athletics this morning. i didn't even hear my alarm go off at 8 since i was up until all hours of the night keeping an eye on terra.. who spent the majority of the time vomiting into a garbage can. lovely, right?
my lesson was at one o'clock. i walked into kelly's office, unprepared and not warmed up. i didn't even care. so i took my horn out and music out, sat down and within 2 minutes.. was crying. and i don't even know why. so she told me to pack my stuff up and put my horn away because there we weren't going to get anything accomplished anyway. i felt like such an ass.
and i had to promise her that i would go straight over to the counseling center to set up an appointment asap. so now not only were my parents on my case about ''talking to someone'' but kelly was too. great. and i did what she said, walked in, and the women behind the desk said to me, "oh you must be kristin." your dad called this morning and your studio teacher just called to tell me you were on your way over. again, her saying that to me made me feel like an ass. so i have an appointment tomorrow.. with some woman. whatever. probably a waste of time, but i'm going to try and go into it with somewhat of a positive attitude.
this is so fucking frustrating.
all i want is to be home.
that is all i want.
my lesson was at one o'clock. i walked into kelly's office, unprepared and not warmed up. i didn't even care. so i took my horn out and music out, sat down and within 2 minutes.. was crying. and i don't even know why. so she told me to pack my stuff up and put my horn away because there we weren't going to get anything accomplished anyway. i felt like such an ass.
and i had to promise her that i would go straight over to the counseling center to set up an appointment asap. so now not only were my parents on my case about ''talking to someone'' but kelly was too. great. and i did what she said, walked in, and the women behind the desk said to me, "oh you must be kristin." your dad called this morning and your studio teacher just called to tell me you were on your way over. again, her saying that to me made me feel like an ass. so i have an appointment tomorrow.. with some woman. whatever. probably a waste of time, but i'm going to try and go into it with somewhat of a positive attitude.
this is so fucking frustrating.
all i want is to be home.
that is all i want.