help.

[__the_luckiest]

i haven't cried this much in so long. and it makes me exhausted. really exhausted. but i can't fall asleep. and while my roommate is getting trashed across the hall i'm sitting here bawling my eyes out. my eyes actually hurt and my skin feels brittle from the dry tears. plus my mom says i'm "too caught up emotionally right now to think straight." yeah so.. what if she's right. they're still not letting me come home. and i told her that i might just stay here for spring break to avoid saying goodbye and leaving home again. because i just don't want to do it. ever again.

i apologize for all of this babble...