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[__srilanka]

Is it a curse or a blessing? We as adolescents have the innate ability to treat everything with an absurdly small amount of care. We can turn the most tragic of situations into snide one-liners. Does this prepare us to deal with the horrific reality of adult life or does this desensitize us and make us critical to a tragic degree? We go through relationships giving them meaning during their existence but shrug them off upon termination as if it was inevitable and possibly awaited. Life in fastforward when we should be appreciating a lack of responsibility and an amazing allowance of freedom in most cases. At times I think I'm over reaching and to dwell on such things is mundane and selfdefeating but it's futile to resist the lure of philosophical ponderings when my mind is in this state of development searching to consume anything and everything, catalogue it and mark it for future use. I want more than what's expected. I want everyone to want the same thing as me. I want everyone to be on the same page with no hidden agendas or insecurities that force them to leech on to the underbelly of their social superiors. I want a revolution of the teenage mentality that coincides with our rapidly changing society. I want to meet someone who's selflessness isn't cause for concern or the means for distributing medication. I want her to meet me there, far away in the other-worldly land of seclusion. I want the "us" that could exist to affirmate itself and seal off the outsiders but allow them only to see the possiblity for happiness in others without the need for it.

I want this read by those who would find some usefulness in the midst of all the rambling.