you know we make the same mistakes
tonight we talked for the first time since the verbal bitch-slapping. it was alright. it was oddly normal, which i almost don't like because he still avoids talking about serious things at all costs, but i guess it's better than nothing. i've said my peace, and i made sure that i didn't do a damn thing to get in touch after last time, so he had to call me and make the effort. he did, which kind of surprised me. also, he wants to go to coffee. it's sort of weird, still not knowing what the hell is going on with him, but he seems to be getting his shit together a bit, which is good i guess. ugh. blah blah boys blah blah. he said he'd call tomorrow too.
funny though, the day he dumped me i had mentioned that jimmy john's was hiring. i mentioned it because i thought he might be interested (he'd been needing a second job for a long time), but his response was "you should apply!" i wasn't sure if he really didn't get it or not, but today he told me he applied there and i couldn't help but be annoyed. i asked if he knew i meant that he should apply, not me (i have a job thank you), when i mentioned it NEARLY A MONTH AGO. he said he did know, he just didn't want to admit it. what the fuck? pride? ego? i don't know what it is but it bugs me.
i told my dad tonight that "i just wish he[gus]'d grow a pair," and i thought he was going to drive off the road he laughed so hard.
in other news, i made friends with this guy named brooklyn who works at "butter london" in the mall (gross, i work in a mall!) and he's going to do my nails. hopefully for free if i time it right (ie when his manager is gone). i haven't had my nails done since senior prom. weird.
i am in the harbor tonight and through tomorrow. anyone want to hang out? i'm kidnapping spencer for an hour or so (i'll take what i can get), and gus is calling sometime in the early afternoon (whatever that means), and i have to eat dinner with my parents... but beyond that i'm doing nothing.
i've been talking to barry a lot recently. did i mention that? i might even fly down to key west for my birthday to visit. sun and beaches and an unassuming best friend sounds really nice right about now. hopefully this is still an option come january.
AND LASTLY: i will not be applying for graduate school at UW. i spent a really fucking long time researching their current comm program and it's not what i want. SO... i will be applying to attend the University of Michigan. oh boy. if I find other schools i'm genuinely interested in i'll try to apply to those as well, but right now UofM is looking like my best bet. the deadline is Jan 15. time to take the motherfuckingGRE's. bring it on!
funny though, the day he dumped me i had mentioned that jimmy john's was hiring. i mentioned it because i thought he might be interested (he'd been needing a second job for a long time), but his response was "you should apply!" i wasn't sure if he really didn't get it or not, but today he told me he applied there and i couldn't help but be annoyed. i asked if he knew i meant that he should apply, not me (i have a job thank you), when i mentioned it NEARLY A MONTH AGO. he said he did know, he just didn't want to admit it. what the fuck? pride? ego? i don't know what it is but it bugs me.
i told my dad tonight that "i just wish he[gus]'d grow a pair," and i thought he was going to drive off the road he laughed so hard.
in other news, i made friends with this guy named brooklyn who works at "butter london" in the mall (gross, i work in a mall!) and he's going to do my nails. hopefully for free if i time it right (ie when his manager is gone). i haven't had my nails done since senior prom. weird.
i am in the harbor tonight and through tomorrow. anyone want to hang out? i'm kidnapping spencer for an hour or so (i'll take what i can get), and gus is calling sometime in the early afternoon (whatever that means), and i have to eat dinner with my parents... but beyond that i'm doing nothing.
i've been talking to barry a lot recently. did i mention that? i might even fly down to key west for my birthday to visit. sun and beaches and an unassuming best friend sounds really nice right about now. hopefully this is still an option come january.
AND LASTLY: i will not be applying for graduate school at UW. i spent a really fucking long time researching their current comm program and it's not what i want. SO... i will be applying to attend the University of Michigan. oh boy. if I find other schools i'm genuinely interested in i'll try to apply to those as well, but right now UofM is looking like my best bet. the deadline is Jan 15. time to take the motherfuckingGRE's. bring it on!