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I hate 'day after's. day after any sort of drug or drinking. I freak out.
So its said that once you take somthing you will end up having a change in your life, you will think about things way different you will realize things, just that sort of thing. it never happened to me. but last night it did. last night i thought and talked so ungodly much and still am like that. Just now its more of thinking, and Last night i was just so happy nothing was pissing me off, but today im so just down already that when i think of things it makes me 200 times more mad than it usually would. and today i had a nice long convo with dusty and grace about andrew and uh that dumb fucking cunt. and now i am sitting here, ungodly pissed and all i want to do is either talk to tony, talk or yell at andrew, or beat the fuck out of a bitch with a bat. and right this second i cant do any of that. so i have to sit here and think about all this shit.
for one you dont tell some ones boyfriend how you want to lose your virginity to them. You DO NOT grab there cock you shouldnt even be close enough to 'by accident' as you would say, touch him, and you should definatly not be sitting on his fucking lap. i dont care who the fuck you are, how much of a slut you are, how much you love the kid, how much you want him to fuck you, how much you want his cock in yer mouth, it dosnt fucking matter control your fucking self u dumb slut.
and to my other point... HOW FUCKING FAMILIAR DOES THIS SOUND?! AH HA it all fucking falls in place dosnt it... yes yes it does.
When you do somthing, it comes back to you, if you do somthing nice somthing good will happen to you, if you fuck some one over, you will in some time get fucked over also. So.... this exact situation plays out but with 2 different people, alot more fucking, and me getting the bennifit. but now... its gonna come back to me, the first guy i love sence kevin thef irst guy i care for and serisouly want to be with sence kevin, the first guy i feel fucking loves me after 3 fucking years, some dumb cunt is gonna try to fuck that up. but that is not going to happen. but this is where its hard, there are several ways that i can make sure this dosnt happen, to make sure i dont get hurt, but all ways have some sort of loss or chance ya know so thats where i am now, thats what im freaking out about, and thats what im gonn abe laying in my bed all night thinking about. but yeah i just typed alot of rambling so im gonna go now haha.
So its said that once you take somthing you will end up having a change in your life, you will think about things way different you will realize things, just that sort of thing. it never happened to me. but last night it did. last night i thought and talked so ungodly much and still am like that. Just now its more of thinking, and Last night i was just so happy nothing was pissing me off, but today im so just down already that when i think of things it makes me 200 times more mad than it usually would. and today i had a nice long convo with dusty and grace about andrew and uh that dumb fucking cunt. and now i am sitting here, ungodly pissed and all i want to do is either talk to tony, talk or yell at andrew, or beat the fuck out of a bitch with a bat. and right this second i cant do any of that. so i have to sit here and think about all this shit.
for one you dont tell some ones boyfriend how you want to lose your virginity to them. You DO NOT grab there cock you shouldnt even be close enough to 'by accident' as you would say, touch him, and you should definatly not be sitting on his fucking lap. i dont care who the fuck you are, how much of a slut you are, how much you love the kid, how much you want him to fuck you, how much you want his cock in yer mouth, it dosnt fucking matter control your fucking self u dumb slut.
and to my other point... HOW FUCKING FAMILIAR DOES THIS SOUND?! AH HA it all fucking falls in place dosnt it... yes yes it does.
When you do somthing, it comes back to you, if you do somthing nice somthing good will happen to you, if you fuck some one over, you will in some time get fucked over also. So.... this exact situation plays out but with 2 different people, alot more fucking, and me getting the bennifit. but now... its gonna come back to me, the first guy i love sence kevin thef irst guy i care for and serisouly want to be with sence kevin, the first guy i feel fucking loves me after 3 fucking years, some dumb cunt is gonna try to fuck that up. but that is not going to happen. but this is where its hard, there are several ways that i can make sure this dosnt happen, to make sure i dont get hurt, but all ways have some sort of loss or chance ya know so thats where i am now, thats what im freaking out about, and thats what im gonn abe laying in my bed all night thinking about. but yeah i just typed alot of rambling so im gonna go now haha.