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I am done with drinking. fer a while any ways, or I need to drink more. Last night was to nuts fer me. I have been 30 times more drunk then i was last night and have never felt that bad besides in 8th grade at nigles when me and sam finish a gallon dude. like me and ak and dusty split a fifth of bacardi right, at like 9 then i had to go home at 11, and yeah i was drunk but not like the blacking out type of drunk, i didnt get caught or any thing, but i sit down on the computer..... and my head just starts spinning like hard core so i go upstiars lay down, which i shouldnt have i should have kept my feet on the ground but i layed there and was just thinking wow this needs to stop right now, so i grab my garbage throw up and i am like holding the garbage and with my head on the side and shit and i threw up i dont even know how much but i couldnt move to lay down like on my bed all the way cuz my head would just freak out, so i lay there thinking i needed to calm down and like breath and try to drink the water that was there and shit so i lay there untill i felt i could get up thinking it was like 1/2 hour later... what time was it 4:30AM! i fucking either layed there or passed out like that for 4 1/2 hours but i remember thinking the whole time how much i wanted it to stop ya know.... i fucking hate being that sick and not having some one there to like hold yer hair back or somthing ya know or ask if yer ok. but i think its bacardi lamon cuz captins i dont get like that and i had a fifth to my self pry.... thursday night? and i still felt like shit with that, didnt throw up but still felt like shit ya know. eh no drinking fer me.
Im supose to be going to work at 10 but i really dont think thats happening. my parents left for the day so if im late they wont know haha... maybe ill just wait till they call and be like sorry i slept in and be like i am so sick bla bla bla i dont know see if i can come it at 12 instead of 10, cuz a cold shower is going to do me good today.
Im excited fer tonight though. fo shoooo! but yeah im not feeling so good at the moment so im going to lay back down.
Im supose to be going to work at 10 but i really dont think thats happening. my parents left for the day so if im late they wont know haha... maybe ill just wait till they call and be like sorry i slept in and be like i am so sick bla bla bla i dont know see if i can come it at 12 instead of 10, cuz a cold shower is going to do me good today.
Im excited fer tonight though. fo shoooo! but yeah im not feeling so good at the moment so im going to lay back down.