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i cried today. it was probably the most i've cried, for a big reason, since june.
i never feel good enough when it comes to my parents. they cramp me. they're trying to keep me close, but, without realizing it, its making me drift away. i desperately want to have a close relationship with them. i want to be their darling little angel again. it seems so impossible. it's like they want me to be perfect. i can't. im trying so hard. im trying so hard to get the best grades, to get my arm better, to have a good year. im trying to be happy. im goddamn trying so fucking hard. oh my god. my brother is watching jimmy neutron in the background, and him and his parents are like having a reunion. they're like "i love you." people make things seem so easy. i wish it was that easy.
i have no life. but i have you guys. and im so grateful for you guys. if i seem bitchy for a while, please dont get pissed. and not cuz of pms. i hate it when guys are always like oh its cuz she's pmsing. it pisses me off. anyway..yeah. <3