Half Alive but I Feel Mostly Dead...
No idea what I want to write, LJ deleted it.
Went to the Renaissance Festival, that was fun. Found out Kelli and I were acting out of character in the same way at the same time ... woahhh. It was really good to see and talk to her again I love her. That night I was called something by accident, if you know what I'm talking about great, if not don't ask. It hit me weirder than I thought it would. Didn't make me to happy.
So then Friday night I met Danny's family, well his immediate and some family friends, aunts uncles, sisters' husbands, etc. I love that family so much. They treat you like you are right on their level, awesome. ANd his dad told me that he considers me part of the family now, so that made me all warm and fuzzy inside. I haven't laughed that hard in so long. Then I hurt Jean-Michel. That sucked.
So then Saturday I went out to breakfast with Kelly. I missed her so. We had excellent conversation and I understand her on a completely new level now :) And we never stopped laughing, smiling, or aww-ing. It was so fantastic I love her. Then Nick called?! haven't seen him in ages... we ended up watched Nightmare Before Christmas at my house. That was nice to see him again... we used to be inseparable, and now we barely talk. It's strange the way it turned out. I miss him so much, he really was one of the greatest friends that I have ever had, and I cry about it all the time. So sad, so strange, the days that are no more.
And then that night I saw the people after Bold and Gold, I wish that everybody wasn't so tired ... but I asked him a question that I shouldn't have ... but that's okay. I guess.
So ... understanding. I've been contemplating it a lot lately. There is a complete and total difference between "understanding" and "knowing how someone works". To understand is to see exactly where they are coming from in one way or another... measured by experience, reaction, and emotional stability. Is there ever someone who completely understands someone else? I'm not sure if it is possible. That is what I have been contemplating.
And all of my deep thoughts are disappearing ... what the hell is going on with me.
30 September 2004
Oh So Strangely Quiet:
It hit me
like
poison,
a
quick substance
seeping through
my
veins.
The thread
ran
its
needle
through my
lips;
I had promised
not
to scream.
Went to the Renaissance Festival, that was fun. Found out Kelli and I were acting out of character in the same way at the same time ... woahhh. It was really good to see and talk to her again I love her. That night I was called something by accident, if you know what I'm talking about great, if not don't ask. It hit me weirder than I thought it would. Didn't make me to happy.
So then Friday night I met Danny's family, well his immediate and some family friends, aunts uncles, sisters' husbands, etc. I love that family so much. They treat you like you are right on their level, awesome. ANd his dad told me that he considers me part of the family now, so that made me all warm and fuzzy inside. I haven't laughed that hard in so long. Then I hurt Jean-Michel. That sucked.
So then Saturday I went out to breakfast with Kelly. I missed her so. We had excellent conversation and I understand her on a completely new level now :) And we never stopped laughing, smiling, or aww-ing. It was so fantastic I love her. Then Nick called?! haven't seen him in ages... we ended up watched Nightmare Before Christmas at my house. That was nice to see him again... we used to be inseparable, and now we barely talk. It's strange the way it turned out. I miss him so much, he really was one of the greatest friends that I have ever had, and I cry about it all the time. So sad, so strange, the days that are no more.
And then that night I saw the people after Bold and Gold, I wish that everybody wasn't so tired ... but I asked him a question that I shouldn't have ... but that's okay. I guess.
So ... understanding. I've been contemplating it a lot lately. There is a complete and total difference between "understanding" and "knowing how someone works". To understand is to see exactly where they are coming from in one way or another... measured by experience, reaction, and emotional stability. Is there ever someone who completely understands someone else? I'm not sure if it is possible. That is what I have been contemplating.
And all of my deep thoughts are disappearing ... what the hell is going on with me.
30 September 2004
Oh So Strangely Quiet:
It hit me
like
poison,
a
quick substance
seeping through
my
veins.
The thread
ran
its
needle
through my
lips;
I had promised
not
to scream.