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hhmm i saw someone yesterday and now i cant stop thinking about how much i love him and how much i want him now.....i loved the way that he looked and i loved the way that he smelled it brought back so many memories....i loved the way that he looked at me even tho he has a girlfriend...i love the way that he talked to me.....i hate the way i cant get over him i hate the way that i still love him after seeing him and i hate the way that he tells me that he "loves" his gf even tho i know he doesnt love her the same way i love him and he loved me....i hate the way that i know he wanted me to kiss him but i couldnt...i hate the way that everything is going so terribly wrong.....i hate it all....i dont know what to do right now im so confused....i just hate the way that i cant have him and that he still looks at me the same way as when we were going out and i hate the way that i feel so much for him and i hate it when i think that he wants it but i dont know and i know that i shouldnt be feeling this way but i do...i hate it how old feelings come back at the worst time or at the time when i dont want them to at all but i still love him and i know that he still loves me...its just a matter of him actually comming out with it...like i did...unfortunatly i was stupid...i dont know...on another note i love the used they are now my favorite band!! hee hee!! i loved the concert! that made me a lil happier :-/