Who lives in the 11th dimension?
I do. It's half terrible.
life is about balance, and right now, today... Because of my inability to stop caring about a person who clearly would rather kill them self by pumping their system full of multiple drugs at a time, do things they forget/barely remember, then beg the world for help that they'll never take, then try to deny it all and refuse they're doing wrong.
I had to make the difficult decision today whether or not I could continue this, or just stop and stay sane and not get dragged down by this weight myself...I chose the latter.
I just can't keep feeling terrible every time a friend of mine reports back with what rock bottom choice a girl who used to be so smart is making now that she wont even remember a week later. It's like watching your little sister die, without being able to do anything at all.
My guilt stems from getting to a pretty low point myself when I got mixed up in that sort of thing before I had my little boy and refused to listen to the people that loved me, But I've never, EVER done what she's been doing.
My brain has always worked semi well enough to know where to draw the line.
Thats all.
life is about balance, and right now, today... Because of my inability to stop caring about a person who clearly would rather kill them self by pumping their system full of multiple drugs at a time, do things they forget/barely remember, then beg the world for help that they'll never take, then try to deny it all and refuse they're doing wrong.
I had to make the difficult decision today whether or not I could continue this, or just stop and stay sane and not get dragged down by this weight myself...I chose the latter.
I just can't keep feeling terrible every time a friend of mine reports back with what rock bottom choice a girl who used to be so smart is making now that she wont even remember a week later. It's like watching your little sister die, without being able to do anything at all.
My guilt stems from getting to a pretty low point myself when I got mixed up in that sort of thing before I had my little boy and refused to listen to the people that loved me, But I've never, EVER done what she's been doing.
My brain has always worked semi well enough to know where to draw the line.
Thats all.