to tell someone so close to you, something so important to you and for them not to do or claim not to be able to do a thing about it, fucking hurts more than any other pain in the whole world.

I'll be so glad when I can be away from all of this.

It's really hard, to be alive.
And its really hard to feel that, and want more than anything for it to go away.

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lifes funny you know. its weird cause by day im just cruisin through everything but when it gets to night i calm down in a weird way and i start thinkin about alot of stuff you know. Lifes just funny, funniest thing i've ever heard of. 

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 i've gotten into blogspot, this thing is depressing. i mean i go through the pages, its got the highest of the highs and the lowest of the lows. I'm trying, so hard to just erase what used to be and who used to be there.

and the lowest of the lows.

acutally, I'm not happy with myself.
I really hope i make softball, i mean i really want it and i really need it.

 At this point, I'm back to wanting things. 
I just really wish i make softball, I think It'd really help my confidence, not to mention help keep me in shape, and shape up some things. For now though, I feel like I'm happy with myself, I feel like that.. Yeah :)


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