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[__oh_that_girl]

it's been an interesting month. My operation (cyst aspiration), the anticipation and aftermath thereof, a friend's suicide and funeral, my auntie finally starting dialysis. I'm back in canterbury, with lots of work to catch up on and a body which isn't entirely healed.

i shall leave you with a song.

Straight by Amanda Palmer

There is a boy in a band who is friends
with my french teacher's stepson sebastian
a very nice.. charming
he seems to know me but i can't remember him
good God forgive me, I'm out of my element
and I can't seem to keep them all straight
I've forgotten which people i like and which people i hate
and i'm waiting for someone to shake me and say
Hey Bitch, your wish is my command
just smile and nod
we'll understand
standing in front of the sink i'm pretending
to wink at pretend paparazzi
who hide in their chemicals
from every locket, behind every curtain
their lenses ensure that I look lost in thought
yet approachable
and i can't seem to keep them all straight
I've forgotten which ones i should skip and which ones i should take and i'm waiting
for someone to shake me and say
Hey bitch, don't quit, you're almost dead
don't give up now, make friends instead
of calling out go home
instead
of getting dressed
go back to bed
There is voice on the phone who is convinced
I'm alone and I've called
'cause i'm greedy and looking for sympathy
He seems to like me but I can't relate
I would like to get closer but Christ all the time it takes..
And i can't sem to keep myself straight
I've forgotten which habits to hide and which habits to fake
and i'm waiting for someone to shake me and say
Hey bitch, nice tits
you're broke but then#
you're rich in love, you're great in bed
you'll see the world, you'll knock them dead
and all the thick books that you read will
count for nothing in the end

i apologise for errors, i typed that while listening as i haven't seen lyrics about.
x