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Make a New Year's resolution? I didn't. I see no point when in a month you'll forget about it anyways. We expect ourselves to give ourselves a clean "canvas" to work with now, when we know the next morning we're going to wake up with the same issues, unsolved problems and feelings as the night before. Actually, I lied, I did make a New Year's resolution. I told myself not to care [about much] anymore. Well, its kind of hard not to care, when you care. Sure, I can always pretend like I don't care, but sooner or later its going to come out. And one person will tell one and one will tell two and two will tell three ect. ect. We want ourselves to change because the numbers on a calender have changed. Hmm. If you can do that Congrats! You've got some sick talent that many wish they probably could have. So here I sit, in the New Year, feeling no different than I did the last. Same friends [gained a few lost a few], same look [just a different style], same outlook on life [just more relaxed]. So I guess its more of the things and people you put yourself around that will eventually make you change, it can't be done all on your own.
Another thing I've noticed (since I suddenly seem to be noticing things right and left now): when you're not accepted by someone it seems we'll do anything to be accepted. Maybe we just weren't suppose to be? Why would you change yourself for someone who can't even accept yourself for who you are. Wither its telling some dumb jokes, taking nothing seriously, being to emotional, having no heart or too much heart. Why change yourself for just one person, when there seems to be plenty more who like you the way you are? Its high school people, why worry? We spend so much time worrying about what others (whom we don't know) think about us, well I've concluded: that is dumb. So, I guess change yourself, only if its for the better of you, not because you want to IMPRESS some one person, cause you always seem to lose one other because of your dumb change. You're fine the way you are. You're flawed, but perfect [too bad you can't see it].
Another thing I've noticed (since I suddenly seem to be noticing things right and left now): when you're not accepted by someone it seems we'll do anything to be accepted. Maybe we just weren't suppose to be? Why would you change yourself for someone who can't even accept yourself for who you are. Wither its telling some dumb jokes, taking nothing seriously, being to emotional, having no heart or too much heart. Why change yourself for just one person, when there seems to be plenty more who like you the way you are? Its high school people, why worry? We spend so much time worrying about what others (whom we don't know) think about us, well I've concluded: that is dumb. So, I guess change yourself, only if its for the better of you, not because you want to IMPRESS some one person, cause you always seem to lose one other because of your dumb change. You're fine the way you are. You're flawed, but perfect [too bad you can't see it].