i wish...
i wish i could be content, that i could honestly be 100% happy with my life, i wish that i always wanted to be alive, that i could put myself first, i wish i could love myself, i wish i didnt memorize calories and fat grams from everything, i wish i could eat and not feel guilty, i was happier thirty pounds ago but at the same time i wish i were skin and bones, i wish i was 100 pounds and gaunt, i wish my boyfriend wanted to be with me all the time the way i want to be with him, i wish i could put my friends first, i wish i was spontaneous, i wish i were healthy in every sense of the word and most importantly i wish i was anyone but me.
this would make me somewhat happy
this would make me somewhat happy