[it was well the intention but bad advice.]
granted, i'm so aware of the fact that all of this is my fault. because i'm me and i'm slowly beging to learn that that's the way things work these days. the truth really is that i'm tired of doing everything with no advice. i'm tired of having to be the bigger person when i really am not. i'm small and young and lost and sad and sorry and tired (or at least when it comes to certain things) i suppose overall i'm just sorry that i ever tried because no. doing this bullshit and dancing around the problem now is not worth the entire relationship that we were in or at least that's the way that you make me feel. i understand that there are alot of things in my personality that are major flaws. i know. i'm sorry that i don't tell everyone how i'm feeling all of the time. i'm sorry i don't yell or hang up the phone or tell everyone when they're being pompus and horrible. i'm sorry that i let you be who you are, but that's just me being who i am. and i guess it's sort of aparent that you don't like her/me so i don't understand why we have to do this bullshit now. i guess overall i'm also really sorry that after it was all over i clued you in on everything i was feeling when we were in a relationship because i think it made things seem a little more like they are now, or something like that that just complicates everything. and besides that. i'm just not really sure. i'm always over you until we start talking. i was so content this past week not thinking or talking about you or to you at all. and it's not because i don't love you i love you so much, but. if you want me to make a stand on any idea, the only one the only one i can do completely alone is to walk away and get over you and find someone new, and hope that we'll still be friends.
gus. sometimes.you.have.to.hurt.people.