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So, I made a wish list on amazon.com
and I think I put everything I want on there. Shoes, Two belts, Two jackets, Two shirts, Three CDs.
I picked "Armor For Sleep", "Thrice", and "Chiodos" to let you know lol.
But. My biggest breakthrough of the night was....
Talking to Jake, yes, of all people. IMed me, it was .. awkward isn't even the word of, I don't know what would be the word..s for it. I think it's a good thing we talked, friends and all. I'm happy. He's probably going to come..soonish, nice long talk about everything. I just want to be friends, nothing more, nothing less. And, he gets who I am now. I think, he's one of those people, who have to work through it. BUT, you know what? I can't wait....I want to see him, I want to talk..NOW even. Like tonight with CJ, when my parents left I was like "Come over." He's like "When" I'm like "NOW". Because, I wanted to see him, we just had a lot to talk about I guess too. 47 more hugs. Me and Jake made all these stupid plans, I love it. It's what I miss. He's going to come over, my mom is going to watch his son Leland, me and him will probably go to like..Big Cypress Lake and talk. Then the week after? IOA..Island of Adventures. And...you know..he's going to see me freak out on every ride there.
I'm happy, but not smiling. I want to FUCKING smile like I mean it. Not the stupid fake ones I wear so well. Someone make me completely happy. For once.
Okay. NOW.
Everyone buy me presents. This is what I want/like.
I buy presents back. Don't worry
This shirt.
This Jacket.
A Gold and Sliver belt like this.
This shirt.
Both of these purses.
This in sliver.
These CDs
Armor For Sleep
Thrice
Chiodos
and I think I put everything I want on there. Shoes, Two belts, Two jackets, Two shirts, Three CDs.
I picked "Armor For Sleep", "Thrice", and "Chiodos" to let you know lol.
But. My biggest breakthrough of the night was....
Talking to Jake, yes, of all people. IMed me, it was .. awkward isn't even the word of, I don't know what would be the word..s for it. I think it's a good thing we talked, friends and all. I'm happy. He's probably going to come..soonish, nice long talk about everything. I just want to be friends, nothing more, nothing less. And, he gets who I am now. I think, he's one of those people, who have to work through it. BUT, you know what? I can't wait....I want to see him, I want to talk..NOW even. Like tonight with CJ, when my parents left I was like "Come over." He's like "When" I'm like "NOW". Because, I wanted to see him, we just had a lot to talk about I guess too. 47 more hugs. Me and Jake made all these stupid plans, I love it. It's what I miss. He's going to come over, my mom is going to watch his son Leland, me and him will probably go to like..Big Cypress Lake and talk. Then the week after? IOA..Island of Adventures. And...you know..he's going to see me freak out on every ride there.
I'm happy, but not smiling. I want to FUCKING smile like I mean it. Not the stupid fake ones I wear so well. Someone make me completely happy. For once.
Okay. NOW.
Everyone buy me presents. This is what I want/like.
I buy presents back. Don't worry
This shirt.
This Jacket.
A Gold and Sliver belt like this.
This shirt.
Both of these purses.
This in sliver.
These CDs
Armor For Sleep
Thrice
Chiodos