Note To Self..I Miss You Terribly ♥
You know what makes me happy...
_♥ Bright Colors
_♥ When my parents aren't screaming at each other
_♥ Severing the ties with people
_♥ Talking to old friends
_♥ Listening to old FOB
_♥ Shopping
_♥ Making up
_♥ -Him-
_♥ Cass
_♥ Lauren
_♥ Jen
_♥ Jenn
_♥ Poofeh
_♥ Going to shows
_♥ Making out
_♥ 50 hugs
_♥ CJ
_♥ Chiodos&&From First To Last
I don't know, I think growing up is a part of what I really am going through, because, I've just become so sick of everything going on around me. People got lame quick, life got lame quick, but when I stand up to the bat to be like you know what "Fuck you. Fuck this. Fuck everyone". They all freak out, except for the nice ones, they're all "It's good your speaking your mind with honesty for once" Because, I AM SOO SORRY if I had to get it out, and I did, what else was going to do, sit here with all the frustration? Now, to Jenn's LJ. She's completely right, everyone runned to her with forgiveness, I'm the bad one right? OH YES, you know what, how I see it, a lot of you are the bad ones too, it's not always my fault, you can't blame everything on me. Fuck that. Fuck you. Mostly. And I will not blow you, either. MHM.
"Bury me standing under your window with the cinder block in hand
Yeah cause no one will ever feel like this again
And if I could move I'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you
I must have dragged my guts a block... they were gone by the time we talked
I think, people need to try this new thing, that Meaghan did and I'm starting to do, forgive and forget, or I'd still be pissed off at CJ. Okay when someone doesn't talk to you for 32 days and basically disappears off of the face of the earth, yeah you'd be pretty upset. Espeically when that guy was really close to you, and you cared a lot about.
"WooOoOo, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself.
But you know that I could crush you with my voice.
But now, I just think even as much as you want to forget, it's hard not too. I find it hard not too, because I can't forget, everything I do reminds me of a lot of people I miss. Online and Off. It really sucks sometime, to be wanting to call someone, and you can't, because you know. They're not there. That's when I found new people, I guess in a sense that's how me and Jen became friends, we are there for each other, no matter what time it is. I'll always answer the phone for her. I only have a couple "Do anything for" friends, and she's one, so is Erin. Everyone else? It's limited chances...like...really limited, I'm sick of putting up with shit....extremely sick.
"Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me
Hide the details I don't want to know a thing
I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel"
And yeah, writing that entry about me &Insert Your Name Here& I think you know I'm talking about you, was trying get me upset, which it didn't...I started laughing, and I know that was serious, but I couldn't help it. It maybe upsetted me, but not majorly. I'm so lame, I laugh at serious stuff. But, I guess, that was you trying to instigate something, even if you said it wasn't. I think, as hard as you try, you'll always trying to bring up things with me, trying to start something with me. Just get this, I won't take it seriously, because I don't take a lot seriously anymore. Being serious ruins things, sha, I know. I hate being serious now. I have to control not laughing SO much x_x;
Anyways. More later, I'll post my Christmas list here, I'm going to go make it.
_♥ Bright Colors
_♥ When my parents aren't screaming at each other
_♥ Severing the ties with people
_♥ Talking to old friends
_♥ Listening to old FOB
_♥ Shopping
_♥ Making up
_♥ -Him-
_♥ Cass
_♥ Lauren
_♥ Jen
_♥ Jenn
_♥ Poofeh
_♥ Going to shows
_♥ Making out
_♥ 50 hugs
_♥ CJ
_♥ Chiodos&&From First To Last
I don't know, I think growing up is a part of what I really am going through, because, I've just become so sick of everything going on around me. People got lame quick, life got lame quick, but when I stand up to the bat to be like you know what "Fuck you. Fuck this. Fuck everyone". They all freak out, except for the nice ones, they're all "It's good your speaking your mind with honesty for once" Because, I AM SOO SORRY if I had to get it out, and I did, what else was going to do, sit here with all the frustration? Now, to Jenn's LJ. She's completely right, everyone runned to her with forgiveness, I'm the bad one right? OH YES, you know what, how I see it, a lot of you are the bad ones too, it's not always my fault, you can't blame everything on me. Fuck that. Fuck you. Mostly. And I will not blow you, either. MHM.
"Bury me standing under your window with the cinder block in hand
Yeah cause no one will ever feel like this again
And if I could move I'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you
I must have dragged my guts a block... they were gone by the time we talked
I think, people need to try this new thing, that Meaghan did and I'm starting to do, forgive and forget, or I'd still be pissed off at CJ. Okay when someone doesn't talk to you for 32 days and basically disappears off of the face of the earth, yeah you'd be pretty upset. Espeically when that guy was really close to you, and you cared a lot about.
"WooOoOo, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself.
But you know that I could crush you with my voice.
But now, I just think even as much as you want to forget, it's hard not too. I find it hard not too, because I can't forget, everything I do reminds me of a lot of people I miss. Online and Off. It really sucks sometime, to be wanting to call someone, and you can't, because you know. They're not there. That's when I found new people, I guess in a sense that's how me and Jen became friends, we are there for each other, no matter what time it is. I'll always answer the phone for her. I only have a couple "Do anything for" friends, and she's one, so is Erin. Everyone else? It's limited chances...like...really limited, I'm sick of putting up with shit....extremely sick.
"Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me
Hide the details I don't want to know a thing
I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel"
And yeah, writing that entry about me &Insert Your Name Here& I think you know I'm talking about you, was trying get me upset, which it didn't...I started laughing, and I know that was serious, but I couldn't help it. It maybe upsetted me, but not majorly. I'm so lame, I laugh at serious stuff. But, I guess, that was you trying to instigate something, even if you said it wasn't. I think, as hard as you try, you'll always trying to bring up things with me, trying to start something with me. Just get this, I won't take it seriously, because I don't take a lot seriously anymore. Being serious ruins things, sha, I know. I hate being serious now. I have to control not laughing SO much x_x;
Anyways. More later, I'll post my Christmas list here, I'm going to go make it.