Checking out some new tunes
I thought I'd jot down a quick update while my phone charges & I check out some new tunes that Eric Couture recommended to me. I had told him I was growing curious about Sleep Token, having liked 2 songs that I've been hearing all over TikTok lately, so he sent some recommendations. He also sent a couple songs from Gojira & Spiritbox as well since they're opening at the Korn show next weekend, & I've never listened to them.
I spent my day today up at my dad's & at his friend Billy's place. We were trying to sort out the scraping noise that I was hearing every time I turned left, which Billy suspected to be a wheel bearing. He took my tire off & gave everything a good lookover. Things seemed to look okay thankfully, so he was hopeful that it was just the result of some buildup of rust & other crud. He cleaned things all up & put everything back together, & for a short while there was no more scraping. When I stopped at Rapid Refill to get gas & coffee on the way back to dad's though, I could hear a little something. By the time I got home, it was back to what it had been doing. So, we've still got to figure out what's doing the noise. Billy said that my car should be all set for my trip though, so if I do have to drive myself to Korn next weekend, at least i know that there's no serious problem that I have to worry about.
Today was also a real cool day as well. The computer says it's 63 outside, & the Weather Channel app says 64. It's been cool enough at night that I've had to shut the windows. Tonight is going to be 51 degrees, according to the app, so that's just a little too cool to leave the windows open since it didn't get super warm in my room from the sun. (Thermometer is saying 71 in here) Looks like it's supposed to warm up a bit though for a handful of days, with 75 the next couple of days, up to 85 on Friday. I'm fine with that. I'm not ready for cooler, fall weather just yet. Not after I spent months waiting for summer.
That's the only thing that stinks about summer, is that it's too short. By September, the leaves are starting to change already, & it gets cool. By October, the leaves are really changed over & fall. November, it's barren & it's a long wait until April when things start to come back out again. (Over 5 months later) I feel like we only get greenery from the very end of April/early May until September, so it's short. I hate that we have cooler weather longer than warmer weather, & it's such a long wait for that warm weather (and more sunlight, too) to come back.
I'm also worried about how this winter will treat me physically. During the summer, I wasn't feeling too bad. My body pain wasn't so severe, which also meant that my muscle weakness wasn't as bad either. This past week or so though, it's been rough. Friday was pretty bad, with a lot of pain especially in the left side of my body for some reason. I still ventured out for D&D, since we were doing movie night for Nick's birthday & I had to get that unused air fryer to Tirk, but it wasn't the most comfortable experience. By the time I got home & went to bed, I was crying from how bad I hurt. Between the physical pain, financial stress, & more horrifying images out of Gaza that really upset me, I got overwhelmed & ended up hyperventilating. So that was fun. As a result of the pain & hyperventilating, I spent most of yesterday in bed because i was so worn out & fatigued. I couldn't do anything, & I was so sore. Eric wasn't happy that I didn't feel up to going anywhere, but we ended up compromising & he got us take-out. I managed to sit up to eat, & then managed to sit on my computer long enough to play a round on Red Alert 2 with my brother before I was tapped out.
So yeah, big concerns about how I'll feel this winter. Late September into October was when I started to feel pretty lousy again with the gut stuff, & it was November where the pain & aches & weakness really seemed to finally hit. I'm worried what will happen if that hits just as bad again.
I'm still wondering if I should see about getting a second opinion about everything. Currently I'm diagnosed with fibromyalgia, & I guess a part of me just has a hard time believing that's it. That there's really no explanation for why I have this pain. I've seen oodles of videos on things like POTS & EDS, & I briefly wondered about those since they share a lot of symptoms & I happen to experience a lot of them, but I don't get the racing heart so much when I stand up (though I do get dizzy when I reach up for anything) & I also don't have hypermobility so I suppose that rules those things out. I did manage to convince my doctor to do some bloodwork for lupus, but that was negative. I'm just wondering if there's anything else it could be that we could check for before finally accepting it's fibro, or if that's that & fibro really is it. I don't know why I feel so skeptical. Maybe I'm just hoping there's an explanation for things & somehow it can be treated.
Anyway, I'm tired, so I think I'm going to go ahead & lay down & read. With how stressed I've been, I've been re-reading my favorite comfort fics, so that's been fun.