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i told brian i'm not sure i feel the same way as i did before and that i'm not sure that i can get that feeling back because of how much i was hurt and everything that's happened since then.
tom came to the mall on his break tonight to tell me that he couldn't talk to me or see me anymore because it hurt him too much, knowing that we both care for each other but that i'm still with brian. he wanted me to come over tonight to 'see what happened' but i know what will happen, because i know how i feel about him. the problem is that i still have feelings for brian and i don't know if i'm done with them or not, and i'm not just going to start something up with tom before i know for sure about brian and i know i'm completely done with it. but it sucks really bad because i do like him a lot and care for him a lot, and i never wanted to hurt him. and. i may have cried a little.
oh, life. why you gotta suck so bad sometimes. :{
also katie's kitty paris had kitteh bebes toniggghtt. there were six total, but two died. =( so now there's four -- a dark greyish/black tiger, a medium grey tiger, a super light grey tiger, and a light grey tiger/tortoise one. i get to pick one to bring home! yay. i don't know if i should get a boy or a girl though, cause max is a boy and is fixed but i don't want to have boyfights. but the last girl cat we had meowed like she was in heat allll the time and it was annoying. and i like boy cats better. but i don't want max to get all flustered and pee in the bathtub a lot again. :/ idk.
also i've been watching oldschool s1 and s2 grey's lately, and i think that pretty much explains my mood and feelings about life as of late.
tom came to the mall on his break tonight to tell me that he couldn't talk to me or see me anymore because it hurt him too much, knowing that we both care for each other but that i'm still with brian. he wanted me to come over tonight to 'see what happened' but i know what will happen, because i know how i feel about him. the problem is that i still have feelings for brian and i don't know if i'm done with them or not, and i'm not just going to start something up with tom before i know for sure about brian and i know i'm completely done with it. but it sucks really bad because i do like him a lot and care for him a lot, and i never wanted to hurt him. and. i may have cried a little.
oh, life. why you gotta suck so bad sometimes. :{
also katie's kitty paris had kitteh bebes toniggghtt. there were six total, but two died. =( so now there's four -- a dark greyish/black tiger, a medium grey tiger, a super light grey tiger, and a light grey tiger/tortoise one. i get to pick one to bring home! yay. i don't know if i should get a boy or a girl though, cause max is a boy and is fixed but i don't want to have boyfights. but the last girl cat we had meowed like she was in heat allll the time and it was annoying. and i like boy cats better. but i don't want max to get all flustered and pee in the bathtub a lot again. :/ idk.
also i've been watching oldschool s1 and s2 grey's lately, and i think that pretty much explains my mood and feelings about life as of late.