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i'm trying really hard to be supportive girlfriend and not be needy, but it's getting really hard.
i miss him. so much. i know it's only been four days, but still. i'm used to seeing him every night and it's not the same talking on the phone. i want to be held and kissed and hold his hands and smell him.
and i've been supportive girlfriend, encouraging him to make friends and whatever. but tonight was different.
we said last night i'd call him after work, and we texted during the day saying how we couldn't wait to talk to each other, and i was waiting the whole day to talk to him -- it's what got me through my shift. i call him at 9, and it's noisy, and i ask why. he says he's at ruby tuesday's with his training class, and we talked for like ten minutes and then he said he had to go because the guys would make fun of him and he would call me later when they got out.
but he just called me and they're on their way to another bar and that he won't really be able to talk to me tonight, and it's just like. i'm glad he's making friends, i really am. but i miss him. and i'm here, alone. and i thought he would want to talk to me as much as i talked to him, and i just feel disappointed and let down. i'll barely get to talk to him tomorrow night because he training class gets out super late, and it's like. blah. whatever. i can only be supportive outside for so long before i break inside, and i had to convince him i wasn't mad because he doesn't need that right now.
the good thing is that he told his roommate about me, and he asked if it was close to marriage or whatever and brian said "eh.. i can tell you this much -- i'm closer with her after five months than i was when i was with my girlfriend of six years." so, that made me feel better. i still feel a little crappy though and i don't care if i'm whining.
emily verygoodbread, i downloaded pushing daisies and it's the bestest show everrr omg. ♥chuck so hard. i'm gonna go watch that and last week's grey's and try to rest my throat. and things.
i miss him. so much. i know it's only been four days, but still. i'm used to seeing him every night and it's not the same talking on the phone. i want to be held and kissed and hold his hands and smell him.
and i've been supportive girlfriend, encouraging him to make friends and whatever. but tonight was different.
we said last night i'd call him after work, and we texted during the day saying how we couldn't wait to talk to each other, and i was waiting the whole day to talk to him -- it's what got me through my shift. i call him at 9, and it's noisy, and i ask why. he says he's at ruby tuesday's with his training class, and we talked for like ten minutes and then he said he had to go because the guys would make fun of him and he would call me later when they got out.
but he just called me and they're on their way to another bar and that he won't really be able to talk to me tonight, and it's just like. i'm glad he's making friends, i really am. but i miss him. and i'm here, alone. and i thought he would want to talk to me as much as i talked to him, and i just feel disappointed and let down. i'll barely get to talk to him tomorrow night because he training class gets out super late, and it's like. blah. whatever. i can only be supportive outside for so long before i break inside, and i had to convince him i wasn't mad because he doesn't need that right now.
the good thing is that he told his roommate about me, and he asked if it was close to marriage or whatever and brian said "eh.. i can tell you this much -- i'm closer with her after five months than i was when i was with my girlfriend of six years." so, that made me feel better. i still feel a little crappy though and i don't care if i'm whining.
emily verygoodbread, i downloaded pushing daisies and it's the bestest show everrr omg. ♥chuck so hard. i'm gonna go watch that and last week's grey's and try to rest my throat. and things.