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this is the first night i've gone right home after work in a looong time and it was nice. brian had to be in ithaca all day, from 730 AM to 630 PM, so he was tired and prolly cranky, and i appreciate a night at home. it's not that i don't love spending time with him, but he's moody a lot and i feel stressed.
i'm worried that i'm not spending enough time with people. i barely see my mommy anymore and i miss her. max is usually sleeping when i get home because it's late, and i miss snuggling with him. (also, he went to the vet today and weighs 14 pounds. heifer.) i've been a really shitty friend to you guys lately, and i don't know how to fix it much because i've been busy. i'm working about 35 hours a week, and next week i'm working 44.75 because jon is on vacation. we're getting a new girl, so i have to help train her, and i have to close by myself two nights and i've never done that before.
and i need to register for classes but my internet is so slow that it takes a bajillion hours and i feel bad doing it at brian's house but he does have fast internets. i need to do it soon to make sure i get the classes i need, but then i have to do loan stuff and all the other stuff that comes with registering and blah.
plus there's the sex thing with brian, and he's been cranky a lot lately because of work, and he doesn't understand why i feel obligated to pick him up when he's been drinking even though i don't want to and i get mad at him for putting me in a tough position. also my hip is out of joint and it hurts when i walk but i don't have time to go to the chiropractor and i've been golfing every other weekend and i bowl monday nights which will make it worse and fldkgjdlfkgjselritdlkgnfb.
life is stressful, but i'm happy, and that kind of evens it out i guess.
also i am mad about a-rod maybe leaving the yankees and that has nothing to do with anything but i thought i'd throw it out there.
i'm worried that i'm not spending enough time with people. i barely see my mommy anymore and i miss her. max is usually sleeping when i get home because it's late, and i miss snuggling with him. (also, he went to the vet today and weighs 14 pounds. heifer.) i've been a really shitty friend to you guys lately, and i don't know how to fix it much because i've been busy. i'm working about 35 hours a week, and next week i'm working 44.75 because jon is on vacation. we're getting a new girl, so i have to help train her, and i have to close by myself two nights and i've never done that before.
and i need to register for classes but my internet is so slow that it takes a bajillion hours and i feel bad doing it at brian's house but he does have fast internets. i need to do it soon to make sure i get the classes i need, but then i have to do loan stuff and all the other stuff that comes with registering and blah.
plus there's the sex thing with brian, and he's been cranky a lot lately because of work, and he doesn't understand why i feel obligated to pick him up when he's been drinking even though i don't want to and i get mad at him for putting me in a tough position. also my hip is out of joint and it hurts when i walk but i don't have time to go to the chiropractor and i've been golfing every other weekend and i bowl monday nights which will make it worse and fldkgjdlfkgjselritdlkgnfb.
life is stressful, but i'm happy, and that kind of evens it out i guess.
also i am mad about a-rod maybe leaving the yankees and that has nothing to do with anything but i thought i'd throw it out there.