Beat Me Up, Break Me Down, Hope That I Don't Come Around, Kick Me When Im On The Ground.
Im so hurt right now its unbelievable, call me emo call me whatever you fucking want because i dont give a shit. im going to say what i fucking mean. I cant say that i truly love any of my friends like i used to.
Alexia, Kelli, Joe, Lauren Allen, Lauren Eberle, Whitney and Matt are honestly the only people I can say I love and they mean so much ( Read more... )
I love you too best friend.
<3
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and how you treat the fucking boyfriend you 'love'
right now is the time you need to look at your life
and the way your living it, betraying your parents
taking advantage of your best friends, and perhaps boyfriend.
you do so much that hurt other people and you dont even realize it
i want you to know your hurting yourself so fucking much
not going to class those last 4 weeks when you could have gotten most of your grades up. Your going to fucking have to take your freshman year over...your fucking things up for yourself and now that summer has come along your hurting the people that mean the most to you :( :( ive been ignoring it for so long but i had to come to my realition eventually and i have :( just tell me whats going on in your life and why you do some ofthe things you do, make me understand and think about the things you do and think to yourself if there is really an explanation
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I'm not half as bad as you say I am.
I don't fucking treat you so bad.
I fucking didn't want to go to Ian's last night because I wanted you be with you.
But I wanted to be with Jon, too.
And you know you have other friends than just me.
And you go off with them.
Then when I finally go out with other people you say I treat you like shit?
Don't deny it.
It's more than true.
I can friends other than you and Jonathon.
Kevin and I go way back so don't say anything about his ass.
That is none of your fucking business.
I dont fucking need you sitting here telling me I'm a horrible person.
You over annalize shit and make it so much worse on yourself and others.
I say grow the fuck up and stop putting me down all the fucking time.
Thanks.
You make a great fucking friend.
ps. reread what you wrote to me, and tell me if that was the nicest way you could have written that.
and dont comment back telling me you are just trying to help me. kthx.
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Hey, just wondering..
Did you treat the rest of your friends like this?
Telling them they suck at life and are a horrible friend?
Because if you did,
I'm not surprised they didn't come back to you.
I'm sorry, but thats a really rude thing to do.
Even if we are bestfriends.
No one wants to hear that they are a horrible friend.
Especially from their bestfriend.
Maybe we fight so much because we really arent alike.
Maybe we really didn't see how much our views differ.
I don't know.
When I tell people about our friendship, I tend to say we are alot alike.
But I can't think of an instance where we really are.
Except fuck the police and other no brained things like that.
Stop.
Think.
Why are we so attracted to eachother,
How did we hit it off so well in the beginning?
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because you guys are sooo much more alike because you all realize what is sooo wrong and right
it hurts me when you say other people are your bestfriends, but i guess i desurve it..
whatever
you know i always loved you
ALWAYS
i have told you so many times that i look up to you and that you are my hero, just because you see what i dont.
i always told you that you were my angel and how much you meant to me.
I leave you messages on your phone telling you i miss you and i want to see you.
when we snuck out the other night it was just us.
you wanted to be with abid but he was asleep.
so it was you and me.
all night.
i cant fucking fight with you anymore.
honestly.
i love you so much
i can listen, i can help you, i can do what ever you want.
give me one more try, please.
i need you ilana.
i will change
i promis
you dont know how much you mean to me.
please, i will be a better person.
just be there for me okay?
and i will be there for you.
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I just dont aprove of some of the things that you do
:( I still Love you and ALWAYS will.
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telling him what happened.
i dont know.
im really sorry go read my update it was all for you.
i love you so much.
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You have alwasy been there fo me and I want to thank you.
You put up with so much of my shit and I love you so much for that.
I am going to work on being a better person:
Less complaining, putting people down, being rude, stuck up, self centered, and everything else.
I want you to know that I really am a good person.
I can be.
I really want you to be my bestfriend forever.
And I need to be as good to you as you are to me.
I'm sorry for everything in the past.
I'm going to do better, day by day.
You will see a change I promis.
Thanks for making me realize how I am acting and how childish it is.
You're my angel, my bestfriend, my support.
♥
Ginger.
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i dont want you to change for me
i want you to change for yourself
honestly, if you like the way your acting keep it that way
even if i dont approve because frankly it doesnt matter what i say
it matters how you feel
i may think the way you act is childish but so what
im not you
and ill always love you
regardless of the things you do
but if you decide to stay the same
just know it will just make it harder for me to respect the things you do
but the things you do are different from who you are
and you have to find the median of those two to balance whoyou really are and who you want to be
♥
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And I think that if I try to change a little bit I will be in so much lass trouble and I will be so much more respected.
I'm doing this for me, for us.
I love you so much.
And I want you to know the real me.
Not the image of me.
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because if your not, you wont change
and I will know that you didnt intend on changing in the first place.
Oh well its not up to me to make your decisions.
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