i think im going to write here more.
i wish changing the things i dont like in my life was easier. its all stupid little things too so i dont understand why its so hard for me. i just want to do more. i want to be happy with today instead of constantly looking forward to tomorrow.
i have been so lazy lately and its driving me crazy. i feel so chubby and gross that i have been putting no effort into how i look and i hate it. i will put on a really cute outfit then end up changing into jeans and a big hoody. i dont know whats happening to me. i look in the mirror and i like what i see but i just think i could be better.
i am happy with everything in my life except for myself, if that even makes sense. so i need to just do something about it. im the only one who can make things better.
i just need to set goals for myself so that i know exactly what i want.
i also need to visit amber more. getting out of san diego for a little would make me feel better.
i have been so lazy lately and its driving me crazy. i feel so chubby and gross that i have been putting no effort into how i look and i hate it. i will put on a really cute outfit then end up changing into jeans and a big hoody. i dont know whats happening to me. i look in the mirror and i like what i see but i just think i could be better.
i am happy with everything in my life except for myself, if that even makes sense. so i need to just do something about it. im the only one who can make things better.
i just need to set goals for myself so that i know exactly what i want.
i also need to visit amber more. getting out of san diego for a little would make me feel better.