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i hate that most relationships seem to have to end badly for me. a lot of people that i have been really good close friends with in the past few years that im not friends with anymore are people that i would avoid if i saw them in the street. it seems like most of these relationships ended because i didnt really like who that person was or was becoming or i just felt that we had grown too different, so i just wanted to step away and move on. but people wont let you do that, they wont just let you leave them with the good memories. im not saying im perfect or that im the best friend a person could have, its just that i really dont know what people expect from me sometimes. when i care for people im there for them, but i cant force myself to care about people or want to be around them if i just dont feel that way. i dont even know why im thinking about this shit. im happy with all the relationships i have with my friends now, thats all that should matter.