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(beware of the xpost because I suck like that)
My personal layout (tho it's pure sex) seems sort of bright for me.
I've been getting "holla'ed" at by guys recently. From Jason (who has "disappeared" since I told him how I felt towards him) to Walter chatting me up to Chris (THE Chris... sexy sexy clubbing Chris with a body that can make me melt at his feet and turn into his on-call sex slave) talking to me yesterday and asking when I was gonna come thru his way and who gave me his number.
It's a new feeling for the year. I remember being the flipping player of players when I was 17/18 and it seems to all be coming back.
Who knew 20# off my obese body would make such a difference in the world of guys.
I have been averaging around 1200 calories a day.
I've lost about 3# (not counting what I'd gained for some reason) in the past week.
It sucks and I hate myself for being so week but on the flip...
I'm in the middle.
This has never happened to me - especially with me not trying. I'm either eating nothing or everything.
It's completely unintentional.
I had a laxi binge a couple days ago.
I enjoyed every moment of pain.
Now that I've gotten my paycheck and it's budgetted, I've decided to start a juice fast. My loval publix has a huge vaiety of pure, organic juices (carrot, carrot apple, mango lemon, etc.) and I'm willing to spend $3 a quart if I can clear out my system. Water and organic juice sipped on thru out the day. I can do this. I can fucking do this. I suck at normal fasts (I've realized this) and it's not because I crack but because I don't lose anything. AT ALL. But this... I can do this.
I've gotten to start SERIOUSLY exercising and not doing my sporadic, pissy shit I'm doing now.
I've damn nearly given up all drinks save for water. (Diet soda is very rare too.) I can see a difference in my face.
13-14# til I'm at my first STGW.
I raise my cig to it.
*Yes... I do suck.
My personal layout (tho it's pure sex) seems sort of bright for me.
I've been getting "holla'ed" at by guys recently. From Jason (who has "disappeared" since I told him how I felt towards him) to Walter chatting me up to Chris (THE Chris... sexy sexy clubbing Chris with a body that can make me melt at his feet and turn into his on-call sex slave) talking to me yesterday and asking when I was gonna come thru his way and who gave me his number.
It's a new feeling for the year. I remember being the flipping player of players when I was 17/18 and it seems to all be coming back.
Who knew 20# off my obese body would make such a difference in the world of guys.
I have been averaging around 1200 calories a day.
I've lost about 3# (not counting what I'd gained for some reason) in the past week.
It sucks and I hate myself for being so week but on the flip...
I'm in the middle.
This has never happened to me - especially with me not trying. I'm either eating nothing or everything.
It's completely unintentional.
I had a laxi binge a couple days ago.
I enjoyed every moment of pain.
Now that I've gotten my paycheck and it's budgetted, I've decided to start a juice fast. My loval publix has a huge vaiety of pure, organic juices (carrot, carrot apple, mango lemon, etc.) and I'm willing to spend $3 a quart if I can clear out my system. Water and organic juice sipped on thru out the day. I can do this. I can fucking do this. I suck at normal fasts (I've realized this) and it's not because I crack but because I don't lose anything. AT ALL. But this... I can do this.
I've gotten to start SERIOUSLY exercising and not doing my sporadic, pissy shit I'm doing now.
I've damn nearly given up all drinks save for water. (Diet soda is very rare too.) I can see a difference in my face.
13-14# til I'm at my first STGW.
I raise my cig to it.
*Yes... I do suck.