do you think it hurts much to die?
lame lj cut :( oh well.
What kind of SI do you do?: cutting, burning, and I pick fights and let people kick the shit out of me.
When did you start?: four years ago.
How long have you been doing this?: oh dear god. since sixth grade.
What makes you want to hurt yourself?: to vent and all the anger that is built up inside I guess.
Does anybody know? my mom and some of my friends know I used to do it, but they don't know its going on currently
If so, who?: ^
Do you feel pain while doing SI? not really, no.
How do you feel after you've SI?: actually most of the time worse.
Where on your body do you do this?: everywhere I can find a clean spot, cutting open old scars just kills.
Where do you SI? (i.e. bathroom, bedroom): bedroom or bathroom
How do you cover up your injuries?: clothes.
What made you begin to do this? pretty much everything in my life. sexual/physical abuse as a child, seeing my grandmother commit suicide, watching my mom almost overdose.
Do you have to visit anybody on a regular basis? no?
How often do you SI?: it varies.
Do you hurt yourself even if you're not feeling: yes
Have others abandoned you because you do this? yes
Do you like your scars? I do actually
Have you ever tried to commit suicide? yes
Do your parents know you hurt yourself?: yes
If so they think...: if I ignore it, it will just go away.
Are your parents divorced?: they were never married
If not do you want them to be? no
Do they fight often?: no
If so how do you feel when they fight?:
Have you ever been hospitalized/institutionalized for your SI?: yes
If so did you like it?: I hate hate hated it.
Would you want to go back?: no
Do you want to hide it from people?: yes
Do you hide it from people?: yes
Do you regret that you started to SI? every fucking day.