you know you're going to read and comment on this....
okay, so im OFFICIALLY over this whole ryan thing. whatever man. at work on wednesday he was just being a weirdo. he walks in and is flirting with me all over the place and refering to things we talked about while we were hooking up. (ie: i said how work was going to be ackward and he brought it up when five of us were talking and then smiled at me). in a way it was cute and sweet and whatever.....but, at the same time i was slightly creeped out. so, then he invites me to a party later on. im like sure, maybe. so, later he tells me he's decided not to go and then acts like an ass for the rest of the night. oh, and there's this girl jessy who we also work with. she's like...23 and god know's why she's working at ravinia. whatever. besides the point. they're always really flirty, but lets compare jessy and myself. she is 5 years older than him. she probably weighs more than him (think butch)and he's probably 6'2. she talks like a man and just. ugh. im nothing like her, and i remeber him telling me he thought it was weird how much she flirted with him. so, they go off together that night. way to be really random ryan.
so, i're realized i have the strangest mind-set when it comes to guys. if they show interest in me, i couldnt give them the time of day. but, hey boys, if you want me....all you have to do is act like a complete weirdo and do random, strange things and ill be all over you, man.
in order to get my mind off all the drama in the suburbs, i decided to skip out on them for the night and head down to my friends boat downtown. got tipsy, forgot about my problems, and had a really relaxing night.
wow, it's been a week of self-revelations. i like smoking up soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much more than drinking. i cant believe it's taken me this long to figure it out. in fact, i think ill go off and smoke a bowl right now.
so, i're realized i have the strangest mind-set when it comes to guys. if they show interest in me, i couldnt give them the time of day. but, hey boys, if you want me....all you have to do is act like a complete weirdo and do random, strange things and ill be all over you, man.
in order to get my mind off all the drama in the suburbs, i decided to skip out on them for the night and head down to my friends boat downtown. got tipsy, forgot about my problems, and had a really relaxing night.
wow, it's been a week of self-revelations. i like smoking up soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much more than drinking. i cant believe it's taken me this long to figure it out. in fact, i think ill go off and smoke a bowl right now.