Envy

[__crank__]

I see people who have their shit together, and I wish that was me.... All I want is for my life to be stable. To have something to do with myself. I want a job, I want to be in school, I want someone who loves me, I want to be happy...

But I'm in control of all of that, so I don't understand why I don't have any of it. I feel like a waste.

Hopefully things can only get better and not worse.