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i went to a karaoke bar and didnt drink today. thats the first in 2 years. its great progress right? but then BAM here comes another problem. well my ex that i really really really liked starts mailing me and she wants me to go see her in this place. its kinda far. but thats nothing. this guy i used to drink with and do drugs with fucking calls me. so now. he has my number. i know for a fact that hes gonna ask me to do shit with him. and i know for a fact that all i have to say is no. and im just making a huge deal out of all of this. a fucking huge deal. but i mean i understand why i would. this is like the biggest threat to my sobriety thing. i hate this