Save me from the nothing I've become

[sexytarawitch]

[Continued from here]I headed to the door, everything from the night I left flashing in my head. Before I knew it he spun me around and pinned me. I couldn't help but look up at him scared, I didn't know what he was going to do, I was afraid he would do what he did that first night and hurt me till I liked it

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[sexytarawitch]

"Love you too, Tara...Love you forever...’til I’m dust."

I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck, closing my eyes slowly when I felt the tears silently fall. Wasn't bad or anything, just the words he said touched me in a way I could never forget. It was then I knew he really did love me, maybe even more then Wi...then her. "A-as will I..." finally managed to choke out, wanting nothing more then to be in his arms with him inside me forever.

My body arched off the bed when he slipped his finger inside me, teasing me with it before teasing my lips with his as he kissed me. I loved kissing him, I could stay like this forever and never get tired of it, I'd always want it, want him.

I whimpered softly, another finger of his joining the first one while he kissed my face and neck. "Spike..." I gasped out, arching up to him, my body begging for more of him, more of anything he wanted to give me.

"Does it feel nice, love?"

I nodded, running my fingers through his hair and pulling him up to kiss me. "Please..." I want you..." My hands ran over his face as I tightened around him again, gaspng from the sensations of his fingers inside me as they quirked up, hitting that one spot. "Spike..." My eyes met his and I smiled softly. "William..."

[ex_lovesbitc93]

God, I loved it when she called me that, more than I’d ever tell her.

“I love it when you call me that.”

Okay, maybe not, then. A little embarrassed, I buried my face in her neck, kissing and nuzzling the skin of her throat as I slid another finger into her. She gasped, but I knew she wanted it so I didn’t worry. When I saw the tears on her cheeks before, truth is I panicked like hell, but I could tell that pain or sadness wasn’t what it was about when I looked into her eyes.

So lovely. She still looked so lovely when she cried…

Gently, I spread my fingers inside her, keeping up the slow rhythm I had going and her hips rolled slowly along with it. She was so wet that I knew she was ready and so I slid my fingers out of her warm cunny - still so warm, too - and slid my cock to her entrance. Bloody wet all right, and ready, so ready that my cock nearly slipped inside when she nudged her hips forward. So eager, but it wasn’t going to be a quick, careless shag…no I was going to take my time, see how many orgasms I could give her before I came myself.

Kissing her deeply, I pushed my hips forward and slowly slid inside her. Oh god, she felt so good and I heard myself groan as I slipped further into her. She moaned and arched off the bed again as I did and for a minute the demon took over and I jerked my hips forward, burying myself inside completely. She cried out, but it didn’t sound like a bad thing, oh no, sounded like she was having a grand old time of it to me.

Pulling away from the kiss, I stilled inside her for a minute and looked into her eyes.

“We’ll start again from here, pet,” I promised. “New slate and all that. We’ll take proper care of each other from now on.”

I kissed her lips softly and started moving slowly inside her, working up to orgasm number one.

“Love you.”

[sexytarawitch]

"Bout as much as I love saying it..." I murmured softly aganst his lips, laughing slightly when he buried his face against my neck. I loved when he got like this, all shy and cute and sometimes I wondered if he was still a human boy or if in fact he still had his soul.

It didn't matter. I was his, he was mine and that's how it was going to always be. We'll deal with this, we'll get through it and end up stronger in the end. I was still me and he saw that now, and I know he likes the part where I'm not as shy.

His fingers inside me set my body on fire and I just wanted more, I wanted more of him and I didn't want it to stop. "Spike..." I whimpered as he moved them inside me, making me shudder when he spread them wider.

I arched my hips to him, wanting and needing him inside me when I felt him so close. "Spike..." I whimpered softly, dragging my fingers over his skin as he kissed me. My body arching and writhing under him as he filled me. It felt so good, almost like he compleated me in every way. This was something much more then our first time together, not better, not worse. Just different, another level.

He pressed hard into me, breaking the slowness of the moment and I cried out, loving how that felt and that it put him fully inside me. I slowly wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him closer to me, rocking my hips against his as I cried out and whimpered for him.

"We’ll start again from here, pet...New slate and all that. We’ll take proper care of each other from now on."

I smiled, there was so much I wanted to say but all I could muster was a small nod. "Promise." His lips met mine and I kissed him lightly as he started to move inside me, slow and deliberate, bringing me to the edge slow and steady.

"Love you."

I buried my face in his neck, nipping and sucking where his pulse would be and I gasped when he gripped my hips to him. "I love you....I love you William..." I wrapped my arms around him tighter and shuddered as I felt myself getting closer to the edge. "I...I love how you f-feel...I love when you're inside me..." I murmured against his skin, writhing under him and tightened my legs around him.

Licking my lips I started to nip and suck at his neck, my breathing - although unneeded - hard and gasping as I felt that knot inside me explode, making me cry out his name and grip him closer to me.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

Her words and the feel of her soft body squirming around underneath me had me in such a bloody state I could hardly think. The only thoughts that seemed to be able to make their way through my brain were things like love you and beautiful and so on and so forth until all I could do was admit I was a lovesick wanker and be getting on with it.

She was beautiful, though, and I did love her.

Grabbing her hips, I moved a bit faster inside her, really couldn’t help myself. I was still at that yummy stage where warm, smouldering lust was building in my gut when she called out my name and I could tell she was about to pop any minute. Sliding my hand up her side, I palmed the soft flesh of her breast and started kneading it in time with my thrusts, while my other hand slid underneath her bottom and started to squeeze the round soft flesh of her behind. Meant my full weight was on her, but it only meant I was trapped deep with in her…nothing wrong with that.

Kissing her neck, I started hard, shallow thrusts that I knew must be pressing against her spot every time and before long I felt her clench around me and come. She cried out, her body shuddering and quivering under me, bringing me even closer to the edge.

Making sure to stay inside her, I rolled us over so she was on top, holding her tightly to my body and letting her take over.

[sexytarawitch]

My nails dug into his flesh as my body got used to his full weight on me, the sharp pain that came with each touch of his hand on my brest and causing me to cry out his name again.

I felt his lips on my neck and I automaticly tilted my neck and bared all for him, pure lust taking over my body as he changed his movement to short and sharp thrusts that had me clawing at the sheets and gripping at the headboard. "Spike..." My back arched up to him as I started to come, hard and fast and my mind spun and all I could think of was him and how he made me feel.

Before I could even think to catch my breath - mortal habit I'm sure I'll break over time - he turned us so I was on top of him. I grinned and tightened around him just to watch his face and god he was fucking beautiful.

His hands were gripping my hips and I kept my eyes on him as I shifted a bit, moving my legs so I was impailed even deeper onto him. The look on his face was pure bliss and for a moment I grinned because I didn't feel as shy and timid as I used to.

Maybe the demon inside me was good for something.

I arched my back towards him as he put both hands on my breasts, one hand fingering the piercing he gave me and sending shockwaves through my body that made me ache for him more. "Come...please baby..." My eyes met his. "Come inside me...Come hard for me..." I bit my lip and smiled at him innocently, knowing he loved that game.

But this wasn't about games, this was about me and him and everything we wanted from each other. "I love you. Please..." I leaned down and kept rocking my hips against his, feeling him as deep inside me as he could go, I started kissing and nipping at his neck. "Come inside me...please Sire...Spike..." I nipped at his neck and whispered even softer. "William..."

[ex_lovesbitc93]

"Come inside me...please Sire...Spike...William..."

God, oh bloody hell… between her mumblings and the way her body felt against me, around me; her lips on my neck, her soft warm pussy enveloping me…fuck I was going to come in seconds. Not that I didn’t want to…but I wanted to make it good for her too…oh, sod it…

Wrapping my arms around her, I held her tightly to me, loving the feeling of being covered in a blanket of Tara. I grinned at the thought…she could be on top more bloody often at this rate.

“You feel so good love,” I gasped out, rocking my hips to meet her movements and pulling her more tightly against me, feeling her breasts pressing against my chest. “So beautiful, love you so much.” Yeah, I was close…could tell ‘cos I was getting as soppy as a bloody…wet…oh god, she felt good…so good I couldn’t think…couldn’t….

She started moving faster, and the friction of her body around my cock was all of a sudden too much and I felt my balls tighten and tendrils of warm sticky lust creep up my spine and take root in my gut and before I knew it I was coming explosively inside her, moaning loudly and writhing beneath her. I threw my head back and bucked by hips frantically…fuck me, I thought my head was going to explode.

After a while, I started coming down from my high. Didn’t open my eyes ‘til I’d ridden out the aftershocks of my orgasm, but when I did, there she was smiling down at me.

My girl.

“Love you,” I said simply.

[sexytarawitch]

I nuzzled my nose against his neck, moaning softly when he put his arms around me and keeping me tightly to him. "Spike..." I whimpered and moved against him, moving my hips to meet each of his thrusts as they sent shockwaves through my spine, making me gasp and want him more.

"I love you..." I murmured, wrapping my arms around his neck, my nails digging into his flesh as I rocked against him. I felt his body start to tense up and I pulled back from him, sitting up and impailing myself fully onto him, causing me to cry out from the friction and feeling.

I watched his body tense up and I started to move my hips more onto him, rocking and pushing him deeper into me as I kept my eyes on him. He came hard, I watched him the entire time as he came, his body arching and writhing under me, making me gasp and moan when I felt him come inside me.

A slow smile crossed my lips and I ran my hands over his face and chest, grinning at him when he looked up at me. His words sparked something inside me and I felt one of those rambles coming on but I couldn't, this wasn't about the rambling or meaningless words that held something for the moment. This was so much more.

"I love you." I murmured, the corner of my mouth curling as I leaned down and kissed him softly, pressing my body close to his.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

I’d wager this moment was about as close to bliss as I’d ever get; lying here spent and pleasantly numb with the woman I loved telling me she loved me too. What I’d always wanted really. Bloody hell, was I tired though. Guess that’s what a night of confessing your deepest darkests’ll do…didn’t regret it one bit though. Now she knew how much she meant to me, and I knew how much I meant to her.

“Think I’m gonna fall asleep on you, love,” I confessed, lifting a weary arm and pulling the covers over us. “Wore me out, that did.” I wrapped us up and pulled her to me, snuggling against her and kissing her neck before pulling back and meeting her gaze.

“Everything peachy, love?” I asked, not wanting to know if it wasn’t, but feeling like I’d only be able to sleep properly if I knew my girl was happy.

[sexytarawitch]

I laughed and curled up against him, pressing my body to him like I would for warmth. But we weren't warm anymore, neither of us was. I guess that's something to accept. I wonder if he loved me more when I was warm, or if he misses how my body used to feel.

But I couldn't worry about that now, there's always tomorrow I guess. Then again we do have forever now.

Moaning softly I tightened my arms around him. "I'm ok." I admitted slightly. "Nothing that can wait till morning." I was happy, I don't remember when I was this happy, but there were things that were eating at me but they could wait. We were both pleasantly spent and I didn't want to ruin it, we both had enough fighting for one night.

"I love you William." I murmured, burying my nose in his neck and wrapping my arms around him. "I'll be ok, it'll all be ok." I pulled back and kissed him softly. "Promise."

[ex_lovesbitc93]

“K,” I murmured, kissing her back softly, and feeling sleep overtake me. I wanted it to be okay, too, but something in the back of my brain told me there were miles to go…but then, could just be me worrying about nothing…sure that’s what it was.

“I’ll dream about you,” I whispered, just before drifting off.