Save me from the nothing I've become

[sexytarawitch]

[Continued from here]I headed to the door, everything from the night I left flashing in my head. Before I knew it he spun me around and pinned me. I couldn't help but look up at him scared, I didn't know what he was going to do, I was afraid he would do what he did that first night and hurt me till I liked it

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[sexytarawitch]

I'm dead, like really dead. Nobody's kiss can feel this good, ever. Goddess I loved kissing him, the feel of his lips against mine, his hand in my hair and the way his tongue sent shocks through my body when it touched mine.

I needed him, he was more then my Sire, this was something beyond. He was everything to me, I wanted him to be. Needed him to be.

The sheet was pulled away and I arched up moaning when his body pressed to mine till he pressed against my thigh, scraping the cuts. Whimpering softly I just laid there, covering my breasts with the sheet as he hurried to the bathroom, coming back with a towel and pressing it against my skin. It hurt at first but it felt better soon enough.

"Feel better?"

I smiled softly and nodded, the burn slowly going away. Sighing I grabbed onto his arm and pulled him down, turning so we were side by side on the bed.

Slowly I ran my hands over him, touching his face and just feeling him so close to me. "I love you." I leaned in and kissed him softly, lifting his hand and holding it where my heart used to beat. "When you're near me and you kiss me. I can almost feel it beat." I murmured, leaning up and kissing him softly, slipping my tongue into his mouth and running it over his.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

She pulled me back down onto the bed beside her and snuggled into to me and for a minute I was torn. I wanted to shag her senseless and cuddle up with her for the night both in one breath. God, I was a soft git, this wasn’t good the way I was letting my defences down like…

Then suddenly I had a thought. What if all this was some bloody game, lulling me into a false sense of security, making me believe she loved me again before pulling the rug out from under my bleeding feet? But when I looked into her eyes I knew that wasn’t true. It was all me being a stupid git. So, just the bloody usual really.

She put my hand above her breast, the place where her heart used to beat and looked me.

"When you're near me and you kiss me. I can almost feel it beat

Bloody hell, those eyes, was the only thought I had time for before she was kissing me again. I wanted to tell her that she made me feel the same way, like when we were together like this, the whole world went away and we weren’t even vampires we were just each others. But I didn’t ‘cos her lips felt too good and before I knew it my hand was slipping down her body and cupping her breast, kneading the flesh softly as I rolled us back over.

I heard her whimper, but this time in a good way and I smiled against her lips, pulling away a little and looking into her eyes, smirking mischievously before I started kissing her neck.

“I could spend hours kissing you,” I murmured against her throat between kisses and moved down lower kissing a trail to her breasts. “‘Specially here,” I murmured kissing her nipple softly, licking it and taking it between my lips. God she tasted good, and I might’ve taken hours kissing those lovely tits of hers if other even more appetising areas weren’t beckoning.

[sexytarawitch]

I smiled softly when I looked into his eyes, I could see he was thinking every thought he could think of that I'm sure he'd like to do to me but tonight - this moment - wasn't about that anymore. It was about more and it touched me in so many ways that he controled it all because us being together without the props was needed and wanted more then anything else.

His hand ran over my body and I whimpered, my back against the mattress. I loved the feel of his body against mine and I drug my nails lightly over his arms, feeling that contact when he smirked down at me.

"I could spend hours kissing you,"

"We d-do have forever you know..." I murmured before a small moan escaped my lips when he kissed my neck, leaving a cool trail of kisses over my flesh and making it feel like it was on fire. I whimpered softly, arching up and gripping the sheets when I feel his cool hands on my breasts while his lips made a slow trail down my stomach, his tongue dipping into my navel. "Spike!" I giggled and I felt him laugh against my skin before he trailed even further.

I laced my fingers through his hair, my body arching under him as fire shot though my body. His tongue on the cuts on my thigh, soothing them with his tongue and making me shudder. "Oh goddess..."

[ex_lovesbitc93]

The taste of her blood was like nothing I’d ever tasted before. Don’t think I’ll ever in a hundred bloody years of being with her get sick of the way it tasted. I lapped at the wounds on her thigh a little more, before moving to my real goal between her thighs…

But before I dipped my tongue into her honeyed centre, I paused for a minute and feeling a might playful I moved my lips back to her belly and dipped my tongue into her navel again. As predicted her stomach muscles clenched and she giggled…almost squealed with delight. Bloody beautiful sound that was, if ever I heard one. Laughing quietly against her tummy when she giggled and writhed on the bed, I bit at her belly lightly quickly over and over again, loving the sound of her giggles above me.

I didn’t dare look up, though…don’t know why…

“Never knew you were so ticklish, love,” I murmured fondly against her skin, sliding a hand from her hip, over her thigh and between her legs. She spread them for me almost as soon as my fingers touched the swollen folds of her pussy and it was a beautiful sight her doing it without being forced…it was like that first night.

And just like that first night I slipped a finger into her and stroked her clit with my thumb, before dipping my head and tasting her, parting her folds with my fingers and dipping my tongue deep into her core.

[sexytarawitch]

He knew I was ticklish, I didn't like that. Well I did because Spike getting playful and cute? Something I love more then anything. He rarely gets like that and I was going to cling onto the moments like this like I now had to cling onto my sanity.

I felt him move his hands and wtihout pause or reservation I parted my legs for him and his fingers. His touch, the idea of his touch and knowing that he will touch me sent my body into a tizzy with anticipation. "Spike..."

A gasp escaped my lips when I felt his fingers inside me, followed shortly by his tongue. My back arched off the bed and I cried out, gripping the sheets harder and squirming, wanting more.

I felt his tongue deep inside me before he slipped his fingers back into me and sucking hard on my clit, flicking his tongue over it again and again. My body shuddering with each flick of his tongue, making me squirm even more.

"S-spike..." I started to shake under him, gasping as my eyes went wide when he curved his fingers upwards inside of me, hitting that spot and making me almost arch off the bed.

Holy hell he was good with that thing...

[ex_lovesbitc93]

She was so close I could taste it, and I knew that if I climbed up her body, slid into her and shagged her senseless right now she wouldn’t mind a bit. But I wanted her to come first. That way she knew I was thinking of her before my myself. ‘Cos I was, I always was, really.

Not really like it was much of a hardship, anyway, to keep doing what I was doing.

Slipping another finger inside her, I started moving them deeper and faster, nibbling and sucking on her clit at the same pace. Wasn’t long before I felt the hard kernel of flesh between my teeth swell and her cunt clench around my fingers. Her hips started rolling frantically and I heard her gasp and whimper and with my other hand I reached up to fondle her breasts, trying to bring her every bit of pleasure I possibly could. She was so close, I knew she’d come any second…

Pumping my fingers faster still, I quirked them inside her so they’d press on her spot with every thrust and before long she shuddered and came, arching off the bed and crying out my name. Christ what a noise. I felt my cock swell at the sound of it but I didn’t move, instead I lazily licked and sucked on her pussy as she rode out her orgasm, shuddering away and whimpering the whole time.

I couldn’t listen to that bloody sound all day.

Crawling up her body, I settled between her legs and pressed a kiss to her lips, I knew she’d want to take things slowly and even though I was as hard as hell and aching to be sheathed in her warm pussy, I rolled onto my side and pulled her with me. Kissing her face, I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her closer to me. She snuggled against me and sighed with contentment. God I loved her.

“I love you,” I whispered into her hair, stroking her back and sides and just loving the feel of her in my arms. I’d gotten so caught up in all the other stuff, I forgot how …how nice this could be…just letting go of everything and just being with her, being me. The demon insides me raged and writhed in disgust, but I didn’t give a toss…this was what I wanted. A companion. Someone to love.

“Tara,” I said, looking into her eyes and cupping her face, stroking her soft skin cheek with my thumb. Maybe this was stupid, but after everything she said, asking seemed like the right thing to do. “Can I make love to you, pet?”

[sexytarawitch]

My body shook as I came down from my high, if my heart still beat I think it would be in my throat right now. I was breathing hard and I curled my body to his, my eyes closed as he kissed my face again, pulling me to him and making me feel so amazing.

"I love you."

His hands ran over me and I melted into him even more. "I love you." I kissed his chest here his heart was supposed to beat and pressed my body to him even more. "I love you so much." I murmured against his skin as I started to get bold and brazen ideas.

"Tara.

What? Wait? What happened? What did I do?

Panic seazed inside of me and I looked up at him, keeping the paniced look off my face. He never, ever called me by my name unless something was wrong. Did he know what I wanted to do? Did he not want me to? Did he not like when I...

His hands were on my face and I started to relax, I melted into his touch, memorizing how it felt, how he felt. My eyes met his and I started to feel myself calm a bit.

"Can I make love to you, pet?"

Anyone ever say how they loved someone so much their heart shattered at that very moment? Well it is possible. It just happened.

"Goddess I love you..." I murmured pressing my body closer to his, my fingers roaming over his skin and setting my body on fire. Something inside me - her, that other me - started to twist and writhe like I was hurting it. I realized I was, all of this is something that's against their nature.

I didn't care.

"I love you..." I murmured again, moving so I was hovering over him. "Yes...but." I smirked at him. "I have plans first." I murmured against his throat, trailing kisses down his neck and chest, flicking my tongue over his nipples and taking advantage of the boldness I felt as I nipped my way down his body.

There was a scar on his stomach, by his navel, and I ran my tongue over it, making close attention to the scared and most likely very sensative skin. I heard him hiss and arch up to me.

I finally made my way down to his throbbing flesh, letting my tongue and lips run over him till I took him slowly into my mouth.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

Bloody hell, her mouth, her tongue they were all I could think about, and the fact that this was the first real time that she’d done this without me asking or forcing her. It took all my strength not to buck my hips as she took the head of my cock into her soft, wet mouth and it was then that I realised that I wasn’t going to be able to hold out…I’d end up flipping her over and fucking her mouth and I didn’t want to hurt her…

Not now everything was going so well…sodding hell, why couldn’t I just have a bit of bloody self control…oh…

“Ooh, Tara, love,” I gasped out as she took me further into her mouth. It was starting to get hard to think and so before all thought was completely blown from my brain, I reached down and grabbed her hands, putting them on my hips, before stretching my own arms back and grabbing onto the headboard.

“Feels so good, love,” I said huskily, closing my eyes. “Don’t stop, but… but hold me down…feels too good…”

Well that made a whole lot of bloody sense didn’t it? Stupid prat…but there wasn’t anything else I could do, ‘cos all of a sudden she was pulling back a little and tonguing my slit. Fuck that drove me crazy…how did she…?

“Yeah, just like that, my gorgeous girl…” I panted, tightening my fists on the headboard in an effort not to grab her head and just push.