on a more positive outlook
even though i have updated this lately...i have come to realize that i really truly miss this junk. i hate being grounded. honestly. i reallly really do. its a pain in the ass knowing your parents dont trust you anymore and not being able to go out whenever you want. whatever though. i guess it could be worse. maybe i will get rest. i mean the weekends were gtting pretty hectic. staying out till 4am. but fuck i love it. [mak trio <3 ] staying out late every night is well worth the colds and coughs i encounter along the way. my grades are bad. i mean like not horrible but not straight A's like last semester. im going to leave hs next year. what a relieffff!!! im either going to graduate early or get my ged/ca. proficiency test. im very excited about this =] im over it. well i never really cared for high school. i dont know why i didnt think of this a year or two ago. yea i will miss prom and all the senior activities and graduating on stage, but i live prom every weekend. i live amazing weekends and i still will. more freedom. more people i want to spend my time with. the one person i actually have a relationship with at school is doing this with me. so what would i be missing? im sick of being at school with people who dont care about me and are just there. to be blunt, i probably will never talk to anyone else again. its sad. it really is. but thats life. people grow apart. move on. meet new people. bond with people. its time for a change and i know this is a right decision. i will be ahead. bythe end of summer i will have 9 college classes completed so i might even be abel to apply to university's even earlier. that means thsi time next year its possible for me to be at usc. wow. just the thought of that makes me happy. well anyways my life is chill. i hope my parents loosen up this grounded thing within a few weeks. march 18 is this huge party i must attend. lol. it will distinguish my social life forever haha. no but really i hope they give in and can trust me again. i hate that feeling. especially since it hard for me to trust people. i feel bad for braking their trust and being a hypocrite with my own feelings. oh well. i have learned. well i must be off to work. love&&&peace