Merry Christmas and happy New Year
Hi.
holidays are half-way through. Viktor broke up with his girlfriend, I almost broke up with my boyfriend, Sidsel is in a crisis with her boyfriend as well. Yay. Happy holdiays, huh?
Well, last wednesday 8not this one, the one before) when our holidays started, Sidsel had some christmas drinking at her house. It was me, Sidsel, Viktor, Signe, stefanie, Mikkel K, mikkel Meyer, Jacob and Kasper-Emil.
It was great! and we were playing this game where you roll a dice, and say, "If this is a(inset number from 1-6), (the person sitting next to me) has to ___!" It was funny... And weird, because I had to lick Kasper-emil's nipple haha! and mikkel and mikkel ran down the street almost naked, singing a song. And kasper-emil had to kiss me, and so did viktor. just a little peck on the lips though, but I felt kind of weird kissing viktor, because Sidsel had just spoken about how we both kind of fancied him even though we both have boyfriends and viktor is sidsel's ex! but it was so quick I barely felt it.. He was sweet that evening thoug... Kept sitting on my lap and hugging me. I like him a lot. But as a friend. Even though we could be a good couple, it won't ever happen, and I'm alsoscared it'd ruin everything, because he's one of my best friends now. So I'll just try and forget that.
My boyfriend rune and I... well, it's weird... Because I know I'll break up with him, but then when I was a phone call away from doing it, my brother made me ait a while. I'm glad I did, because we're only just getting to know each other. But, I feel kind of bad about it sometimes. Because I kind of, get embarassed, when he's all dressed up in shirts and stuff.. i like it better when he's a bit more casual. And I don't like that we can't really discuss important things, he just says I'm right. And he cares so much about his metal stuff, and the only music he has that isn't metal, is fucking Elton John! How can he not have anything else? ugh... And I don't like that he's so sensitive.. and I feel like an asshole because I don't care about him as much as he cares about me... And he gets so sad, I can't bring myself to break up with him. not that I want to. I just know I will someday.. but it can also be nice to have him of course and he's really good to me, and I would like to make it work, but I know, that at this point in my life, I can't put all the effort in the relationship that is needed. And even though he might not think so, I think the age difference (he's 3 years older ) is very obvious. I don't know if he's more mature, but I just don't feel I can relate to him the same way I can with Viktor and other guys my age.. Uhhh I'm so confused, what should I do!? please help?
holidays are half-way through. Viktor broke up with his girlfriend, I almost broke up with my boyfriend, Sidsel is in a crisis with her boyfriend as well. Yay. Happy holdiays, huh?
Well, last wednesday 8not this one, the one before) when our holidays started, Sidsel had some christmas drinking at her house. It was me, Sidsel, Viktor, Signe, stefanie, Mikkel K, mikkel Meyer, Jacob and Kasper-Emil.
It was great! and we were playing this game where you roll a dice, and say, "If this is a(inset number from 1-6), (the person sitting next to me) has to ___!" It was funny... And weird, because I had to lick Kasper-emil's nipple haha! and mikkel and mikkel ran down the street almost naked, singing a song. And kasper-emil had to kiss me, and so did viktor. just a little peck on the lips though, but I felt kind of weird kissing viktor, because Sidsel had just spoken about how we both kind of fancied him even though we both have boyfriends and viktor is sidsel's ex! but it was so quick I barely felt it.. He was sweet that evening thoug... Kept sitting on my lap and hugging me. I like him a lot. But as a friend. Even though we could be a good couple, it won't ever happen, and I'm alsoscared it'd ruin everything, because he's one of my best friends now. So I'll just try and forget that.
My boyfriend rune and I... well, it's weird... Because I know I'll break up with him, but then when I was a phone call away from doing it, my brother made me ait a while. I'm glad I did, because we're only just getting to know each other. But, I feel kind of bad about it sometimes. Because I kind of, get embarassed, when he's all dressed up in shirts and stuff.. i like it better when he's a bit more casual. And I don't like that we can't really discuss important things, he just says I'm right. And he cares so much about his metal stuff, and the only music he has that isn't metal, is fucking Elton John! How can he not have anything else? ugh... And I don't like that he's so sensitive.. and I feel like an asshole because I don't care about him as much as he cares about me... And he gets so sad, I can't bring myself to break up with him. not that I want to. I just know I will someday.. but it can also be nice to have him of course and he's really good to me, and I would like to make it work, but I know, that at this point in my life, I can't put all the effort in the relationship that is needed. And even though he might not think so, I think the age difference (he's 3 years older ) is very obvious. I don't know if he's more mature, but I just don't feel I can relate to him the same way I can with Viktor and other guys my age.. Uhhh I'm so confused, what should I do!? please help?