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I humiliated myself 100% today at school. Uggh! It was in the 7th lesson of the day, and my stomach had been in pains since early in the morning, and frankly I wasn't in the best mood. So, when we kept talking about the same stupid subject in danish, and with our weird teacher, I just mouthed 'blah blah blah' to noone in particular. I mean, I didn't say anything, I just moved my lips like that. And I know it was childish and stupid, but my teacher wasn't supposed to bloody see it! But she did! and of course she humiliated me completely in front of the class, and kept coming back to how childish I was, and let us work in pairs because 'apparantly she'd talked too much' . So I felt kind of helpless, and raised my hand to sort of explain myself so I said: 'well, I'd just like to explain myself, I didn't mean that YOU talked too much, I just felt like this text is a bit nonsense, because I don't think you can seperate the language into two groups (we were learning about languages and dialects) Farmer's language and Industrial language, because now, it' more individual how you talk.' and she said, that well, SHE didn't write the text, but some sociologists did, and I said well I meant it for the ones who'd written it, and she just kind of blacked me out. I felt/feel really embarrased, because it's not fun to be humiliated in a totally new class. I don't understand how sidsel can constantly argue with her about EvERYTHING! but then, their discussions might be about sillly little things, but mine was just so obviously childish, and lost. But I felt better when after class, I said I was sorry to her, and it wasn't to be mean, it was just because it was the last lesson and I was tired.She just sort of held my face and said 'it's okay. I'm just saying it''

I'm mostly embarrased because of Viktor and Marie. Marie is just always saying smart stuff that she likes, and Viktor just never graps attention from her. he's so effortlessly cool.