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i really rarely use this. i was just reminded of it again
my head hurts every day so bad. I don't understand why some people have to feel pain and others don't. not that these other people don't experience pain, I guess some people experience more then others. for the past ten days I've had a new migraine everyday. I think its stress. one day I couldn't even get out of bed for two hours, but I was forced becuase I had work.
ah work. I wouldn't even consider my summer a summer. why? because when I think of summer I think of bee's, swimming pools, and blisters from walking too much instead of the city. my last summer as a 'kid' was not envisioned working in an overly airconditioned starbucks full time haha. I don't have much room to complain though. My job isn't that physically demanding or overly exhausting. To be real, I just straight up miss my friends and my family. My entire family went to the beach today but I couldn't go because I was working. and I enjoy like 75 percent of my coworkers. I guess. i'm just tired.
"Wow new york are you excited?"
"Yeah im really excited"
^I am real sick of saying that to fucking adults.
I haven't been photographing much lately. nothing inspiring or anything. I just read and wtach interviews of photographers, and it just contributes to my headache. I try so hard to go out the oneor two days that I don't work but i've gotten like one good photograph in like three months. it's sad. you let something consume you completely but you can't even generate anything to a standard that you uphold for a single photograph. theirs a major connection and feeling lacking in everything I take. and I write about photos and I think about them constantly. in a sense it's the only time I can be excited about something. I really might just need a change of scenery-- I do not know. I don't even know if I am in the right mindset to photograph. that could be a problem too.
My birthday is in two weeks. I hate my birthday. you could buy me a new brain--that might be nice.
i took my migraine medicine and i cannot fall assleeep
my head hurts every day so bad. I don't understand why some people have to feel pain and others don't. not that these other people don't experience pain, I guess some people experience more then others. for the past ten days I've had a new migraine everyday. I think its stress. one day I couldn't even get out of bed for two hours, but I was forced becuase I had work.
ah work. I wouldn't even consider my summer a summer. why? because when I think of summer I think of bee's, swimming pools, and blisters from walking too much instead of the city. my last summer as a 'kid' was not envisioned working in an overly airconditioned starbucks full time haha. I don't have much room to complain though. My job isn't that physically demanding or overly exhausting. To be real, I just straight up miss my friends and my family. My entire family went to the beach today but I couldn't go because I was working. and I enjoy like 75 percent of my coworkers. I guess. i'm just tired.
"Wow new york are you excited?"
"Yeah im really excited"
^I am real sick of saying that to fucking adults.
I haven't been photographing much lately. nothing inspiring or anything. I just read and wtach interviews of photographers, and it just contributes to my headache. I try so hard to go out the oneor two days that I don't work but i've gotten like one good photograph in like three months. it's sad. you let something consume you completely but you can't even generate anything to a standard that you uphold for a single photograph. theirs a major connection and feeling lacking in everything I take. and I write about photos and I think about them constantly. in a sense it's the only time I can be excited about something. I really might just need a change of scenery-- I do not know. I don't even know if I am in the right mindset to photograph. that could be a problem too.
My birthday is in two weeks. I hate my birthday. you could buy me a new brain--that might be nice.
i took my migraine medicine and i cannot fall assleeep