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So I just realized that starting next weekend, Morgan's going to have 8:00 shows every Friday and Saturday in Feb., March, May, and June. That blows.
So if I seem like I'm blowing any of you off to ever hang out with him, the fact is his schedule's 10x more hectic than mine. And he can't just blow off rehearsals or call in sick. If I didn't cater to his schedule, I'd never see him.
Its going to be really hard for us, but its so worth it. I love him, so much. I've never, ever felt this way before. And I know I've said that in the past, but it was never really true. This time, though . . . he's everything to me, I adore him. Even when he's bitchy, cause you know what? Neither I nor anyone else I'm friends with has ever gone through anything even close to some of the shit thats happened to him. He hasn't had it easy, he still doesn't. Picture being kicked out of your house when you were fourteen. Discovering that Dunkin Donuts throws out bagels every night, even if they're still good, and surviving off the ones that didn't hit the ground. Watching friends die one after one. And at the end of the day, being a 19 year old kid living on your own without any parents to help you out, having to figure out how to get through life. He has every right to be moody sometimes.
But he puts up with me. And he loves me. And I love him. And I AM going to schedule a lot of my free time to hang out with him, and I WILL say things like, "Lets hang out tonight, till like 11 so I can hang out with Morgan afterwards." And I'm sorry for that, but what else can I do?
Grah.
So if I seem like I'm blowing any of you off to ever hang out with him, the fact is his schedule's 10x more hectic than mine. And he can't just blow off rehearsals or call in sick. If I didn't cater to his schedule, I'd never see him.
Its going to be really hard for us, but its so worth it. I love him, so much. I've never, ever felt this way before. And I know I've said that in the past, but it was never really true. This time, though . . . he's everything to me, I adore him. Even when he's bitchy, cause you know what? Neither I nor anyone else I'm friends with has ever gone through anything even close to some of the shit thats happened to him. He hasn't had it easy, he still doesn't. Picture being kicked out of your house when you were fourteen. Discovering that Dunkin Donuts throws out bagels every night, even if they're still good, and surviving off the ones that didn't hit the ground. Watching friends die one after one. And at the end of the day, being a 19 year old kid living on your own without any parents to help you out, having to figure out how to get through life. He has every right to be moody sometimes.
But he puts up with me. And he loves me. And I love him. And I AM going to schedule a lot of my free time to hang out with him, and I WILL say things like, "Lets hang out tonight, till like 11 so I can hang out with Morgan afterwards." And I'm sorry for that, but what else can I do?
Grah.