i want my helmet back, you bastard
where did all of my hair go? it's not here anymore. close-cut, brown, and sticking up all over the place. why? i don't know. i had said i'd done it to signify a change in my life. maybe it was the wrong way of signifying the event[s], because now i'm unhappy with my decision. oh well. thankfully, i can always grow it out and dye it another color. i just wish i was able to do that with other things as well.
a thought came to me while i was laying in my recliner earlier. i managed to get out of my 5th and 6th periods because i have a bit of a headache [probably due to stress], so i went home and watched hot fuzz. simon pegg and nick frost have a way of making me feel better. however, this isn't about those two. as i was curled up there in the worn white leather, i realized that i'm nearly to a point where i will get involved with a boy just so that i can experience the feeling of being held close once again...and this is bad. i don't want to be with any boy. i want to be with this certain boy. part of me is saying "well, just stay with this random boy until the other one comes around." the thing is, if i did that...would he ever come around? i doubt it. and this specific boy knows that i actually dislike the boy that i'm contemplating getting with...which would make me look like a lunatic if i started dating him. decisions, decisions. perhaps it's time for me to become aggressive. assert yourself! tell that certain boy about how you feel! don't be afraid of the "what if"s! we're all about self-empowerment! ...aren't we?
i could really go for some udon noodles right now. yeah...my big blue blanket [a gift i share with jacob] and a big bowl of udon noodles with system of a down blaring all around me. it's a good feeling, being wrapped up in the music, finding yourself becoming carried away by the lyrics that are dancing all around you.
a thought came to me while i was laying in my recliner earlier. i managed to get out of my 5th and 6th periods because i have a bit of a headache [probably due to stress], so i went home and watched hot fuzz. simon pegg and nick frost have a way of making me feel better. however, this isn't about those two. as i was curled up there in the worn white leather, i realized that i'm nearly to a point where i will get involved with a boy just so that i can experience the feeling of being held close once again...and this is bad. i don't want to be with any boy. i want to be with this certain boy. part of me is saying "well, just stay with this random boy until the other one comes around." the thing is, if i did that...would he ever come around? i doubt it. and this specific boy knows that i actually dislike the boy that i'm contemplating getting with...which would make me look like a lunatic if i started dating him. decisions, decisions. perhaps it's time for me to become aggressive. assert yourself! tell that certain boy about how you feel! don't be afraid of the "what if"s! we're all about self-empowerment! ...aren't we?
i could really go for some udon noodles right now. yeah...my big blue blanket [a gift i share with jacob] and a big bowl of udon noodles with system of a down blaring all around me. it's a good feeling, being wrapped up in the music, finding yourself becoming carried away by the lyrics that are dancing all around you.