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So, things were sorta better. Rob promised things would change. He won't control me anymore...yet somehow he still is. I don't work closings anymore even though I wanted to work closings once in a while. What doesn't he get? I like working closings because then I get to spend ALL day with him and Caden. He gets to do whatever he wants. He gets to work under the table and do all the drugs he wants. I'm so sick of hearing excuses about him losing his wallet or being sick or tired. I know what's going on. I know that he's doing something. I'm not an idiot. I just want him to stop. I want the guy I fell in love with back. He pushes me and pushes me until I can't take it anymore, then says I'm a baby or crazy or other fucked up things. WHAT DO YOU EXPECT??? I'm not supposed to cry after you control everything I do, then won't do a damn thing for me?? Every time I ask him for a favor I get a no. When do I get what I deserve? I'm the only one working and saving money for this baby. I'm the only one trying to manage a million things and get shit together so we can have an apartment. I kiss his ass religiously, and I get fucked over.