O_O
How about that? Isn't that nifty? I don't know...
Heilig knoei. I've had so much to do recently that I couldn't even keep it all straight.
So. Let's start with school. I currently have all A's, which won't last long because of english. I took the PSAT Wednesday, which was interesting because it seemed quite easy and I feel like I did really well on it this time around. I won't be in school at all next Wednesday. Yay! Ummmm. We haven't been doing much in Trig, Word Processing, Spanish, or Band. The normal tons of work in history-chapter reviews/test, english-term paper/quizzes/poetry analyzation, and biology-labs/notes/lectures. How fun. Lunch hasn't been very eventful because no one has that lunch really. I miss having Neal and Ant at lunch. I miss JB too. I wish I had A lunch. All my guys friends have it with Ant, which sucks a big rubber ball. I've been up extremely late recently working on chapter reviews and essays and notes and things of that nature. Bleh. -shoots self- This year is going to be a LOT of work, but I'm really glad I'll still be exempt from my exams. -insert sign of relief-
As far as home life goes, it just...is. I haven't been home much recently and when I am, I'm either doing homework, online playing games, locked in my room on the phone/doing homework, or sleeping. Still have more people than normal living in my house, but it's all good. I've gotten used to it.
As far as friends go, I don't really talk to anyone. I mean, I goof off and talk to certain people at school, but as for out of school it seems like all I do is talk to people for homework, hang out with Ant ONLY, and fight with Darin. That's basically how life has been recently. Wake up, go to school, fight with Darin while doing things after school, come home, do homework till ungodly hours of the night, crash, and wake up a few minutes late. How fun.
As far as the "love" life goes, it's gone. I just...it's too pressuring. I can't hang out with my friend(s) or talk to my friend(s) without things exploding and ending up in a huge arguement. It's just too much for me, so relationships aren't even in my agenda right now. I have school to focus on for now. Maybe in a few weeks I'll be ready to work a relationship into my time, and when I feel like I can handle one, I don't know who I want it to be with. Certain people just ride my back and push me so much it just gets to be too much and it's so much easier to run away, which is exactly what he's making me do. I know he's trying to help, but he's doing it the wrong way and it's just making things worse. I don't need help right now. I just need to be left alone and be able to make my own decisions/do my own things without playing 21+ questions every SECOND. I need some space. I'm being smothered by the little bit of time I get with him because it's usually the ONLY free time I get and it's always me me me talk to me me me hang out with me me me i should mean more than anyone me me me. Just...I don't know.
I was going to go to Mobile tomorrow. Scratched that. Will be going NEXT Saturday. That should be an interesting trip.
As for homecoming, I plan on going, but who with? I don't know. I'm pretty sure I don't even want to go with a date. Just go by myself in a big group of my friends to hang out. I just need friends now. No one on one with anyone other than my two best friends.
Well, we have a football game tonight and roll call is at 5:45. This should be interesting. I feel like crap and don't want to go so I have to go make that decision. I also have a BUTTLOAD of housework to do tomorrow so I'm going to go attempt to do a bit of that before the game.
♥
Chelsa
Heilig knoei. I've had so much to do recently that I couldn't even keep it all straight.
So. Let's start with school. I currently have all A's, which won't last long because of english. I took the PSAT Wednesday, which was interesting because it seemed quite easy and I feel like I did really well on it this time around. I won't be in school at all next Wednesday. Yay! Ummmm. We haven't been doing much in Trig, Word Processing, Spanish, or Band. The normal tons of work in history-chapter reviews/test, english-term paper/quizzes/poetry analyzation, and biology-labs/notes/lectures. How fun. Lunch hasn't been very eventful because no one has that lunch really. I miss having Neal and Ant at lunch. I miss JB too. I wish I had A lunch. All my guys friends have it with Ant, which sucks a big rubber ball. I've been up extremely late recently working on chapter reviews and essays and notes and things of that nature. Bleh. -shoots self- This year is going to be a LOT of work, but I'm really glad I'll still be exempt from my exams. -insert sign of relief-
As far as home life goes, it just...is. I haven't been home much recently and when I am, I'm either doing homework, online playing games, locked in my room on the phone/doing homework, or sleeping. Still have more people than normal living in my house, but it's all good. I've gotten used to it.
As far as friends go, I don't really talk to anyone. I mean, I goof off and talk to certain people at school, but as for out of school it seems like all I do is talk to people for homework, hang out with Ant ONLY, and fight with Darin. That's basically how life has been recently. Wake up, go to school, fight with Darin while doing things after school, come home, do homework till ungodly hours of the night, crash, and wake up a few minutes late. How fun.
As far as the "love" life goes, it's gone. I just...it's too pressuring. I can't hang out with my friend(s) or talk to my friend(s) without things exploding and ending up in a huge arguement. It's just too much for me, so relationships aren't even in my agenda right now. I have school to focus on for now. Maybe in a few weeks I'll be ready to work a relationship into my time, and when I feel like I can handle one, I don't know who I want it to be with. Certain people just ride my back and push me so much it just gets to be too much and it's so much easier to run away, which is exactly what he's making me do. I know he's trying to help, but he's doing it the wrong way and it's just making things worse. I don't need help right now. I just need to be left alone and be able to make my own decisions/do my own things without playing 21+ questions every SECOND. I need some space. I'm being smothered by the little bit of time I get with him because it's usually the ONLY free time I get and it's always me me me talk to me me me hang out with me me me i should mean more than anyone me me me. Just...I don't know.
I was going to go to Mobile tomorrow. Scratched that. Will be going NEXT Saturday. That should be an interesting trip.
As for homecoming, I plan on going, but who with? I don't know. I'm pretty sure I don't even want to go with a date. Just go by myself in a big group of my friends to hang out. I just need friends now. No one on one with anyone other than my two best friends.
Well, we have a football game tonight and roll call is at 5:45. This should be interesting. I feel like crap and don't want to go so I have to go make that decision. I also have a BUTTLOAD of housework to do tomorrow so I'm going to go attempt to do a bit of that before the game.
♥
Chelsa