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[___meganrose]

 i really wish i could stop fucking thinking about what happened last night
there's just so much i could say about it
and so much i could have said last night to you
but you got me when i was weak
and i knew you were planning it
and yea, you asked me several times if i was okay
but obviously i wasn't. and instead of asking over and over again..
maybe you should have just done something
since youre so god dman smart
or maybe you should give a shit about me
maybe just a little bit more
because yeah, youre right.. i can easily go somewhere else and make even more money
but we both know the reasons why im not

i just wish i could stop thinking about it
and im just glad to leave early tomorrow night so i dont have to end the night alone with you
because now i dont even want to be your friend
because its such shit
you made it out to seem like i havent done anything right all along and that i pretty much suck
but i dont, and i do everything and then some for you
just makes me so angry
so what now? pretend to be nice? for how long.
i made myself so sick last night and even this morning because of all of this
andddd.. oh fuck it already