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well i felt horrible so i called and talked to my brother fiance for a good long while about everything. i swear, she is like the sister i never had. she made me feel a little better, but i still dont feel all that great. i dunno what to do. i feel like just packing up a bag and heading off for michigan. i know that i have people that care waiting for me there. the only thing holding me back is her...but then again, i dont even know if she cares all that much anymore. i mean, i know she loves me, but i mean caring in a way to actually want me. if she doesnt want me i wish she would just tell me. i cant help but to stick around until the bitter end. if i didnt, i wouldnt know how this story is going to end. once this is over, it ends with me leaving, or me staying. ill probably end up leaving though. theres nothing left for me in kentucky, and i doubt she will be left once this is over.