Wow guys. Just fucking wow.
I saw InMemory play for the first time last week.
I was hooked.
In awe.
I saw them again last night.
I looked up at them like they were my muses.
I spoke to Marco, the lead singer.
He oozes everything I want.
This is how deep I get into this stuff.
omgshHANNAHS ON: Let me put it generally for you.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I love this band. InMemory. I saw them once, I was hooked so badly. I want to be able to go to all of their shows. I want to be able to become friends with them. I want to be able to hang with them outside of shows. Marco, thats a different story. I look up at him in awe. He inspires me to get off my ass and do something with my voice. And Ive only talked to him once. Im becoming an obsessed little fangirl and it upsets me more then anything that I am. I want to go to all their shows, and watch them perform, but how stupid does that make me come off? Im attracted to Marco. I dont want to be, because every girl that looks at him says, OMG I LOVE HIM. I think he's smart and opinionated and funny and I want to get to know him, even if its just as a friend. Now having said that, I dont want any shit going on that I will have to help take care of. Meaning if something happens with you and Ryan, or you and someone else or him and someone else, I will go for you and help you out, because you are friends. But in the case where it would be you an Ryan having an issue, it would make me really upset.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I know, a lot of that is stpid
omgshHANNAHS ON: And I typed a lot.
omgshHANNAHS ON: But THATS why Im frustrated.
omgshHANNAHS ON: That show last thursday threw me out of whack.
mgshHANNAHS ON: Ugh.
xxxxxxxxxx: ?
omgshHANNAHS ON: Typing all that made me sick to my stomach.
xxxxxxxxxxx: Awh.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx: I'm sorry.
xxxxxxxxxxx: I'm not laughing at you. At all.
xxxxxxxx: And I hope you get Marco. Like. Afkausdgfksdh. I'm so happy you've found someone to look up to thats nota dickface and/or retarded.
omgshHANNAHS ON: He's 23. He could probably have any girl he wants. There is no way Id be able to show him how great I can be.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx: Or at least become friends with him.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx: Dude.
omgshHANNAHS ON: Listen.
xxxxxxxx: He's fucking...retarded if he never sees it.
omgshHANNAHS ON: Im stupid for like, wanting him.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I sent him a message
omgshHANNAHS ON: Last night
omgshHANNAHS ON: thanking him for the show
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx: mhm.
omgshHANNAHS ON: asking him to get back to me.
omgshHANNAHS ON: He read it, didnt reply.
omgshHANNAHS ON: And all night long
omgshHANNAHS ON: I was sleeping
omgshHANNAHS ON: and thinking about what he might say.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I dont need to be with him. I need to be AROUND him. THATS the kind of person I want to hang around, thats the kind of person that will motivate me.
xxxxxxxxxx: I see.
omgshHANNAHS ON: And here I am, coming off to you as some complete psycho chick while you think in the back of your head "she hasnt got a fucking chance"
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: Actually. No.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I mean, what do you want me to say? I was obsessed with Johnny Depp. I knew almost everything a fan could know about him without asking them herself. I wanted to meet him, rape him. Once again, with Marco, I just want to be around him. Listen to him sing, watch him perform, hear him speak and laugh and talk about stuff that I wouldnt have guessed he would talk about.
xxxxxxxxxxxx: Hannah, I'll admit, you're one of the only real friends I have. I hope you feel the same way. You're fucking beautiful, amazing and so talented. It kills me when you talk shit about yourself. You say you envy me when there are people looking at me but really, what do they want? My body, not me. When you meet people, they get to know you and find out how amazing I am. No one takes that chance with me. You're luckier than you can imagine, and like I said, if he doesn't know what an amazingperson you are, he's dumb. And I know you'll doubt me, I know. But I want you to realize that I'm not lying, I wouldn't ever lie to you.
omgshHANNAHS ON: No, see thats where people dont get it. I know Im amazing. Its not bubbling at the surface, but deep down, small as a nut I know how great i can be. I was blessed with my voice. Since I was 8, old enough to realize how great I could be, I thought that that was the key. I could charm someone when they heard me sing. Someone would realize how happy I was on stage. That is my main, kind of quote thing. You could see me, in my room, playing my guitar, and singing. You could see me meeting Johnny Depp, him hugging me. But you will never, in your entire life see me happier then I am on stage, or when I perform. That is the REAL me. That is me at my finest hour. So thats what I do, I think, if Im interested in someone, friend or more, I want them to hear me sing.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I have low self confidence in everything else about myself. Looks, charm, even intelligence sometimes. ButI think, "You hear me sing, you'll know how great I can be." I am a firm believer in the fact, that once someone hears me sing, full thorttle, in front of however many people, that if they cna realize how great of a talent I have, then they will be more eager to get to know me. And the more eager they are to get to know me, the more I shine. Ill open up a little easier, I'll be charming, witty, smart.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I condition myself.
omgshHANNAHS ON: A lot.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx: And I understand that too.
xxxxxxxxxxx: I mean, I've never heard you sing, I would love too, but I already realize how great you are.
xxxxxxxxxx: If you're greater when you sing, damn. I'll be schocked.
omgshHANNAHS ON: And then, when I see someone like Marco, who just fucking.. Oozes confidence and talent out of his pores, it drives me insane. I want them/him to know that I am willing to be there for him/them. I get butterflies when I hear them play, CD or live. He hugged me, I shook for a minute afterwards. I walked out of the club last night, after he hugged me goodbye and said I will see you at the show, I rubbed my arms as I was walking out, like I was washed with something better.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I hate typing like this.
omgshHANNAHS ON: The few people I'll open up in this way to, will just laugh, not know what to say, and say I should write... Or they put themselves down, in effort to rake some compliments, or because they just generally think low of themselves.
omgshHANNAHS ON: When I say all this, it isnt meant to be low confidented, or wanting compliments. Its supposed to inspire people, in this case, to look for their inspiration. Their admiration.
I was hooked.
In awe.
I saw them again last night.
I looked up at them like they were my muses.
I spoke to Marco, the lead singer.
He oozes everything I want.
This is how deep I get into this stuff.
omgshHANNAHS ON: Let me put it generally for you.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I love this band. InMemory. I saw them once, I was hooked so badly. I want to be able to go to all of their shows. I want to be able to become friends with them. I want to be able to hang with them outside of shows. Marco, thats a different story. I look up at him in awe. He inspires me to get off my ass and do something with my voice. And Ive only talked to him once. Im becoming an obsessed little fangirl and it upsets me more then anything that I am. I want to go to all their shows, and watch them perform, but how stupid does that make me come off? Im attracted to Marco. I dont want to be, because every girl that looks at him says, OMG I LOVE HIM. I think he's smart and opinionated and funny and I want to get to know him, even if its just as a friend. Now having said that, I dont want any shit going on that I will have to help take care of. Meaning if something happens with you and Ryan, or you and someone else or him and someone else, I will go for you and help you out, because you are friends. But in the case where it would be you an Ryan having an issue, it would make me really upset.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I know, a lot of that is stpid
omgshHANNAHS ON: And I typed a lot.
omgshHANNAHS ON: But THATS why Im frustrated.
omgshHANNAHS ON: That show last thursday threw me out of whack.
mgshHANNAHS ON: Ugh.
xxxxxxxxxx: ?
omgshHANNAHS ON: Typing all that made me sick to my stomach.
xxxxxxxxxxx: Awh.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx: I'm sorry.
xxxxxxxxxxx: I'm not laughing at you. At all.
xxxxxxxx: And I hope you get Marco. Like. Afkausdgfksdh. I'm so happy you've found someone to look up to thats nota dickface and/or retarded.
omgshHANNAHS ON: He's 23. He could probably have any girl he wants. There is no way Id be able to show him how great I can be.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx: Or at least become friends with him.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx: Dude.
omgshHANNAHS ON: Listen.
xxxxxxxx: He's fucking...retarded if he never sees it.
omgshHANNAHS ON: Im stupid for like, wanting him.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I sent him a message
omgshHANNAHS ON: Last night
omgshHANNAHS ON: thanking him for the show
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx: mhm.
omgshHANNAHS ON: asking him to get back to me.
omgshHANNAHS ON: He read it, didnt reply.
omgshHANNAHS ON: And all night long
omgshHANNAHS ON: I was sleeping
omgshHANNAHS ON: and thinking about what he might say.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I dont need to be with him. I need to be AROUND him. THATS the kind of person I want to hang around, thats the kind of person that will motivate me.
xxxxxxxxxx: I see.
omgshHANNAHS ON: And here I am, coming off to you as some complete psycho chick while you think in the back of your head "she hasnt got a fucking chance"
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: Actually. No.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I mean, what do you want me to say? I was obsessed with Johnny Depp. I knew almost everything a fan could know about him without asking them herself. I wanted to meet him, rape him. Once again, with Marco, I just want to be around him. Listen to him sing, watch him perform, hear him speak and laugh and talk about stuff that I wouldnt have guessed he would talk about.
xxxxxxxxxxxx: Hannah, I'll admit, you're one of the only real friends I have. I hope you feel the same way. You're fucking beautiful, amazing and so talented. It kills me when you talk shit about yourself. You say you envy me when there are people looking at me but really, what do they want? My body, not me. When you meet people, they get to know you and find out how amazing I am. No one takes that chance with me. You're luckier than you can imagine, and like I said, if he doesn't know what an amazingperson you are, he's dumb. And I know you'll doubt me, I know. But I want you to realize that I'm not lying, I wouldn't ever lie to you.
omgshHANNAHS ON: No, see thats where people dont get it. I know Im amazing. Its not bubbling at the surface, but deep down, small as a nut I know how great i can be. I was blessed with my voice. Since I was 8, old enough to realize how great I could be, I thought that that was the key. I could charm someone when they heard me sing. Someone would realize how happy I was on stage. That is my main, kind of quote thing. You could see me, in my room, playing my guitar, and singing. You could see me meeting Johnny Depp, him hugging me. But you will never, in your entire life see me happier then I am on stage, or when I perform. That is the REAL me. That is me at my finest hour. So thats what I do, I think, if Im interested in someone, friend or more, I want them to hear me sing.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I have low self confidence in everything else about myself. Looks, charm, even intelligence sometimes. ButI think, "You hear me sing, you'll know how great I can be." I am a firm believer in the fact, that once someone hears me sing, full thorttle, in front of however many people, that if they cna realize how great of a talent I have, then they will be more eager to get to know me. And the more eager they are to get to know me, the more I shine. Ill open up a little easier, I'll be charming, witty, smart.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I condition myself.
omgshHANNAHS ON: A lot.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx: And I understand that too.
xxxxxxxxxxx: I mean, I've never heard you sing, I would love too, but I already realize how great you are.
xxxxxxxxxx: If you're greater when you sing, damn. I'll be schocked.
omgshHANNAHS ON: And then, when I see someone like Marco, who just fucking.. Oozes confidence and talent out of his pores, it drives me insane. I want them/him to know that I am willing to be there for him/them. I get butterflies when I hear them play, CD or live. He hugged me, I shook for a minute afterwards. I walked out of the club last night, after he hugged me goodbye and said I will see you at the show, I rubbed my arms as I was walking out, like I was washed with something better.
omgshHANNAHS ON: I hate typing like this.
omgshHANNAHS ON: The few people I'll open up in this way to, will just laugh, not know what to say, and say I should write... Or they put themselves down, in effort to rake some compliments, or because they just generally think low of themselves.
omgshHANNAHS ON: When I say all this, it isnt meant to be low confidented, or wanting compliments. Its supposed to inspire people, in this case, to look for their inspiration. Their admiration.