im bored. so im gonna update.
i feel like doing a lot of stuff that i probably wont do. i feel like getting drunk with the everyone in the van from homecoming. i feel like eating chicken and broccoli alfredo. i feel like cleaning. i feel like laying on my bed watching a movie alone. i feel like shopping with my mom. i feel like going ANYWHERE and doing ANYTHING with ben. i feel like talking to ben. i feel like visiting angie and jaime, or stef and dana, or jess and brian at college. i feel like taking a nap and a shower. i feel like going to a concert. i feel like doing something different to my hair. .....the list could go on forever.
me and ben had a good conversation on the phone last night. i enjoyed it thoroughly...even though some of it put my stomach in knots.
we had to write 3 papers today in my english class. i got really into it, and actually liked what i wrote. one of them made me sad though cuz it had to be about something in our childhood. it's weird how i don't have that anymore..a childhood. ill never get it back. writing about it made me miss when my dad was as awesome as everyone else in this world thinks he is, and when my parents got along, and when life was simple and easy and carefree. i wanna go back, but at the same time i don't. i am happy now for the most part, but it's a different kind of happy.
not a lot happened today. me and jeremy played tic tac toe during our nursing lecture because the lady was a faggot. and we made fun of the girls in front of us because they were writing down baby names they liked in cursive. weirdos. i got called "a big sack of gay". lol. regina made the class worth while, too. she's a funny girl. i talked to a girl who is 20 and i think she is a lesbian. she hit me at the PRT and told me i was her new friend? haha. whatever. i also saw ppl trying to push a car off the highway. my room mates and i are going so someone's suprise birthday party tonight. i dont know him. i dont think cari does either. shannon knows everyone.
tomorrow is thursday already. that's exciting. i plan on actually getting a lot of stuff done tomorrow. anddd i hope the drive-in, or should i say "drive-thru" [hahaha] thing works out. i hate people who have to work. i kind of hope that i don't get that job this summer, even though i would make a lot of money. but um yea, i hafta get ready. then eat. then go to that birthday party.
<3 bye