IdontThinkAboutMeInTerms of you, i dont think about you in terms of us, idontThinkAboutUsInTermsOf<3
Now, I know that I'm not better than him.
I don't believe in that surperiority complex bullshit fucking deal.
I do think that I just might deserve to be treated with a little more respect.
I'm beging to think this child has no intergrity what-so-ever, come on, dude.. where's the honesty?
OHYEAH, it's not there.
As sincere as this kid can be, he drives me insane.
He seriously tried to convince me, that we should be friends..
HAHA, why? Why in the hell would I waste my time on someone who's going to call me a liar?
Oh, that's right. I shouldn't. He doesn't need me, and I don't need him. I've only known him two months.
Of course there's always going to be that attachement, I'm not going to be able to forget him.
That doesnt mean I have to engage in conversation, or merely even act like I give a shit.
Well, we all know that I do give shit, haha.
Hi, my name's Rachel and I'm a co-dependent.
And, yes.. I particpate in co-dependency with the people that I love;
[Main Entry: co·de·pen·den·cy
Pronunciation: -d&n(t)-sE
Function: noun
: a psychological condition or a relationship in which a person is controlled or manipulated by another who is affected with a pathological condition (as an addiction to alcohol or heroin); broadly : dependence on the needs of or control by another.]
The things I learn about myself while on vacation, haha. I love Amy. =].
Well, I don't know. I was all game for us to be friends, and for him to know that I would always be there for him..
Untill he called me a liar, he admitted that he hit me to me, obviously.. but, not to anyone else.
I'm not gonna lie either, I looked the kid dead in the eyes and I told him,
that if he everr needed me, that I would be there.
And that I didn't need to be his friend, inorder to be there for him.
I still care about him, but I can't deal with him. I need to, well.. let go of him for own good.
But, if he needs me.. I'll awlays be there. Once I care for someone, it doesn't go away. You'll awlays be able to count on me.
Unless you fuck me over unbelieveably bad, I'll awlays be there.
If I told you once I'd always be there for you, you can bet your fucking ass I'll still be there when you need me most,
even if we've lost touch, even if we don't talk, even if things went bad, if I'm needed, and I said I'd always be there, I will be.
BUT, if you fuck me over.. All my words, and things that I've promised and might have pledge to you, are completely void.
I will NOT be walked all over, and used. That's one thing i believe in.
We're only as strong as the things that we stand for.
And if I don't say so myself, I'm a pretty strong girl, I'm stronger than I thought i was.
I don't know, man. Shit's been crazy lately, so much drama. And I'm ALWAYS in the middle of it.
It seriously never fucking fails. Drama fucking loves me, haha. I guess I don't mind it, obviously.
I can't hate it that much to deal with it, I think that I like fixing it the most though, haha. Weirdddooo.
I just wrote that entire entry, and I hate it. I hate it a lot.
I'm sick of writing, I'm sick of writing, and trying to make myself feel better.
I care about you way more than you're realizing,
and once you're ready to realize, come back to me.
But, for now.. just let me go, you're not ready to realize how much I care,
and I'm not going to waste time, I'm just not. SO, i'm here. Come and get me. I dare you.
Sorry for the contridiction, I gues I'm just kind of sick of myself, haha.
I write entirely too much, I apologize.. It's just my piece of mind.