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there is a difference between the feeling you get the moment right before you walk into a building and the feeling you get when leaving. god, what do i have to do, oh i can't wait for warm air. but you must move your arms. i miss my dad i miss hawaii so freakingg much. everyone is the same, i cant put this into words in any sort of way. i love seeing people puke in the sink, please i didnt do anything wrong you dont need to be mad. i'm heartless! habits of 500 dollars a month. i don't believe a word you are saying. but you just told me everything i could ever want to hear. why. why cant things just be solid. inconsistency and contradictions you will never escape. am i supposed to end this or deal with this? am i supposed to be positive and hopeful despite my extreme tendency to be a completely negative person about everything in life? because i am. and i dont know if i should. idealisms right. i dont want to be anywhere unless i'm with you, but thats absolutely pathetic. i wont let anyone speak for me and i will never bring up anything in the past as defense. i will start every conversation with some sort of attitude that will not ruin it, that will not cause a fight. i will. i am the most observant antisocial, jealous person. i am selfish. this all comes down to the question, should you do what makes you happy right now no matter the consequences? how much can you really ruin your life by a bad decision, how much time is actually wasted, communication is very important. i do not know much.